ok. today was a bad day. haha. yup. i was suppose to fast for the team going to taiwan. but well. i couldn't resist all the temptation. so i broke fast at 1400. yup. well fast again another day. went for bs in the afternoon with lay ho and leila. leila so late. den she left after giving bible study and treating us to cookies. she abandon us in orchard. yup. lay ho had to take care of me for the rest of the day. i learnt something in bs. God truly luvs me. He will nv ever resist me but always accept me. so i shld also do the same. yup. i will not be afraid, be discourage or anything. cos i noe tt he has already won all battles for me.

well. shopped wif lay ho for the rest of the day. we went window shopping and ate dinner by the staircase. although my butt really hurts, but it was a great meal. thxs lay ho! she had to decide on where we were going cos lyk ya. u noe...i dun make decisions! yup. my mum called and nagged at me when she were shopping. aiyo. so noisy. den she went to sit at the bench outside mos burger. den we were chatting away for lyk wad? hours? zai rite. haha. i noe something tt i cannot tell abt her...haha. ok lah. i shall not be mean to her. and no, lay ho, i will nv tell you who i crush. u haf to find out urself. i gave u a very obvious hint liao. haha.

went home lyk the latest in the whole family. got scolding lah. ya. not really scolding lah. more lyk debating. haha. so lame rite. i so sad! my sis is taking my sim card wif her to taiwan! i dun wan to use her's! haha. ya lah. gtg slp liao. sending her off tmr. nite!!!

aiyo. im feeling bored lah. everything i wanna go slp i will suddenly remember 'aiya! i haven't post an entry yet. ' den i will slowly walk back and on the comp and start typing. haiz. i mean wad's the point? i am lyk the onli one who updates everyday. i go abt reading people's blogs and they always dun update. i always end up reading the same entry lor. i dun wan to update liao lah. i am now feeling lyk wad am i living for? i used to be so into 5566 alot. but now i am lyk feeling so sian of them liao. den i thought i was so into God awhile ago. but now i am lyk not of fire liao. i am lyk leading a life when i just go abt lyk a dead person wif no aim or target to fulfill. i am just wasting my time. why dun God just let mi die now? i dun wan to everyday go home and listen to my parents nag and nag and nag. and listening to my sisters encouraging mi to be more and more onto God each day and i am lyk not feeling anything. i pray each day tt the holy spirit will come and fill mi up and make mi be on fire again. but lyk i still dun feel anything. i feel lyk im just an empty shell walking abt. is God asking mi to wait? if it is so. can u pls give mi a sign or wad? i noe tt u luv mi. i am willing to do anything u ask mi to do. u ask mi to wait and i will wait paitiently. u ask mi to go and die and i will go and die. i want to have a reason to live. in the past i thought i had to live becos my family loves me. i dun wan them to suffer becos of losing me. but now i seriously dun feel the love in my family. everyone is so busy now. no one cares how each one feels. no one cares wad the house is lyk. den i thought. i have to finish my studies. i want to noe my abilities. i wan to noe how i fare. i want people to noe how i fare. but now after the PSLE. i feel tt it is lyk no one cares abt how i fare. i wan to be noticed. i dun one to be hiding in one corner where no one can see mi. when michelle first took her PSLE. everyone were asking her this and tt. but mi? no one cares. it is onli those more kpo people will ask how did i do and no more. i noe i didn't put in any effort for the examination but i want people to noe tt i did well! but no one cares. den when i first entered chc. i thought. i have to live on. i want to serve God. i want to help to reach out to more people so tt more can be saved. but now im not on fire anymore.

haiz. lets not tok abt it anymore. well...today was just another boring day. i went to my mum' s office and changed a new blogskin. den i went to sch to submit my option form. then i went home and play comp. i recommended michelle tis game which she was so engrossed in. it was from neopets lor. den my mum started nagging and everyone got angry. and im now sitting here typing and typing when my arms are like liveless and going to drop dead soon. so lyk ya.

NITE!!!

heyhey! u see! i kept my promise. i am updating again! haha. ok. aniways. today went to church in the morning lah. was pretty late, i guess. haha. today the sermon was boring!!! haha. i was not paying much attention lah. but i pick up some stuff and they were pretty good! yup. after tt. played amazing race. damn sui lah. raining so heavily. den i was wearing jeans lor. u noe when i went home to bathe. i couldn't lyk take out my pants. haha. ya lah. oh we tok sean's shirt as a towel to dry ourselves when we reached his stop. but it didn't really seem to work. haha. sorry sean! haha. yup. i was super hyper in the beginning but later on got tired lah. so lyk ya lah. i got pissed off. liyun is now my gossip partner. haha. sorry lah God. i noe i am not suppose to lah. but cannot resist lah. i'll try to not do it in the future. we were so pissed off by tis p5 gal lah. haha. oh yea. u noe rite the amazing race is lyk every station we called the hotline to ask for ans. so lyk we were not playing for time or wad lah. we were just playing for fun onli. anyways. i really had fun lah. next time i want to be the station master! they all so dry! haha. now so tired. my legs very pain leh. so poor thing rite? oh ya! chuek ying is back. so long nv see her liao. she is still as weird as ever lah. haha. well. meet new people today lah. yup.

i want to go ZzZzZ liao lah. nite!
(praying for the team going to taiwan)

heyhey! i have decided. i'll TRY and update my blog everyday. haiz. i feel lyk changing my skin again leh. haha. i just changed to this yesterday leh. why these days i keep changing ar. dun u feel excited? everytime come evanpay blog got new skin. haha. ok...nvm. i noe...im weird. haha

aiya. today ar. something wrong wif mi. it is lyk i slept lyk 11hrs lor. but den right i still feel so tired. haha. madness rite. i bet mich pay must be lyk thinking 'wad's ur problem? i had less than 3hrs of slp leh and u are saying tt u are tired?' upon reading this. haha. den u noe right. today i've been forgetting things and stonning for the whole day lor. wait ar. stoning is stoning or stonning? tag my tagboard and tell mi hor. haha. went cellgroup wif michpay. it was lyk a repeat of the seminar on thurs lah. but it was good lah. cos u see. i missed out so many things and i dunno lor. haha. before tt. michpay and the rest had meeting so they kicked mi out of the room lah. den the who? daniel. had to babysit mi lah. i think tt he is damn weird lor. i noe im weird lah. but he is worse than mi ar...haha. sarah is sick...she looked terrible. yup. i think she is weird man. quan han ask her take taxi go home, he pay the taxi fare. she dun want! so stupid! i would definately take it! haha. yup. meet new people lah. got who? candice and serrin? pai seh lah. i dunno how to spell lah. haha.

anyways. i must really thank God man. it is lyk i lost my psle result slip and option form lah. den it is lyk dun have them i cannot go sec sch lah. so i was so scared man. running here and there looking for it. den i dun dare to tell my parents lah. cos i scared they scold mi lah. so i prayed to God. please let mi find it. den it was lyk i was pushing this table blocking my drawer away. den the stuff on it dropped lah. den there it was! my result slip + option form!! haha. i was lyk screaming 'thank god!' den my parents were lyk staring at mi. haha. and! i finally found my cest' si bon cd! haha. it is some 5566 cd lah. in case u dunno. it has been missing for more than a month liao lah. i was so sad u noe. i wanted to lyk save up and buy a new one. den it is lyk now is the holiday season lah. den it is lyk everything holiday im broke lah. so lyk ya...den have to wait until sch reopen then i got money lor. so i lyk have to wait for another month. den u see ar. tt time i went korea i wanted to bring lor. den cos cannot find den i so sad liao lor. so ya lah.

aiya. update again tmr. as promised. haha.

ahhh! it is so bad having to make a decision! tis again reminds mi of the decision i have to make during the end times. oh god! please help mi!!! in the past it is always my parents, my sisters making decision for mi. but this time i haf to decide on which school i want to go on my own!! i really dunno. i wanted to go ij tp in the first place den now i want to go nan hua sec. cos it is a sap sch. den u see ar. it is lyk not say everyone can get into a sap school wan lor. so i really dunno where to go. cos again u see ar. my chances of getting in are not say very high lor. den if i choose ij tp i comfirm go in liao. den if i can't get into nan hua rite. i can't even get into ij tp lor. so lyk ya...tt is another problem. now i really need as many advices as i can get!

it has been more than two months ago since i updated lah. cos lazy lah. but this time is important! my PSLE results out 2 days ago!!!!! unexpected results!!! 246! i thought i would get 218 or wad lah but i heard a voice whispering into my ear when my sis and i were walking to the mrt to go to sch..."u will get 246" den i simply ignored it but it was! must be the holy presence of god. haha. my teacher was so bad to mi. she purposely covered my score den dun let mi see. haha. my dad was having opperation tt day. thank god that nth bad happened to him lah. went for the seminar last nite. it was simply GREAT! thank god! came back for korea 1-2weeks ago lah. it is lyk everyone i seen all grew fat except jopay who slim down!!! went for cheryl's bbq party on tuesday. it was so fun! haha. aiya. i dunno wad to write liao lah. so boring these days...