Am I dying soon?

the condition of the pain in my lungs is getting from bad to worse. The pain is killing me. At times I cant even breathe and cant even walk properly. tt explains why you often see me sitting or lying on the grass after every run cos I got a feeling that if I didnt do tt I'll just drop onto the ground and die. training was a tough job for me today. I could feel my chest hurting even at conditioning. it feels lyk my lungs have shriveled up and they are clamped up together. i dunno. but i definately hope that it is nothing serious of cos.

was slacking all through training today, top reason is to let my lungs relax. was making fun of yulica. haha, she is so dumb. haha. yongqi was so sweet to treat all of us ice-cream after trg. went home with pris after tt. she was telling me abt her, *toot* and *toot*. haiz. confusing. haha. i was telling her about Sandy and how im getting her to open up. she was so interested. she told me to keep her updated on how im doing.

we won the bid for our lady, queen of peace catholic church. gotta go sell vounchers on the 5,6 feb. which means tt i'll either miss cg or svc. yep. but of cos i'll try my best to make it for both. doralyn was kinda pissed by the 1/1 people cos on hearing on wad church we won they asked everyone who belongs to tt church to nt buy frm us. haiz. using underhand methods eh? art was as usual, boring. i was sitting there drawing the same thing over and over again. math. revision, test tmr. some people frm ymca came to perform during assembly today. it was kinda lame though. haha.

Sandy's a really great kid. she was asking me so many chim chim qns. haha. i was so scared tt i'll teach her the wrong stuff lor. hmm. i better get going now..there's school tmr.

off to bed!
10more mins to jeff's bdae.
happy bdae jeff! (in advance)

it is said tt one will have to make difficult decisions and will face many trails and tribulations in his/her life. i've got a feeling tt one is coming soon. i could feel tt parental objection problem is rising in our family. another thing is tt i've gotta make a decision fast. should i stay or leave track? it is taking up too much of my time. another thing is tt i need help. i gotta forget. i gotta forget quick. forget abt something tt is so totally ridiculous but something tt brought painful memories. im really really confused. wad to do and wad not to do. i've gotta learn to prioritize, to plan my time. i've gotta do all these fast. i've got not much time left. i've gotta get my grandparents saved, i gotta get my dad to go to church. i've got so many responsiblities in school. im stretching myself too far out. my exams are coming in another 2weeks and i've nt learnt a single thing. i've gotta rush out some decoration thingy by wed. i havent got time for anything. im just a sec1 student, wad do u expect from me? i wanna rise up, i gotta rise up. i've got to make sacrifices. another thing is tt my wrist is nt healing. i've been over straining it. i didnt even let it have a chance to rest and recover. but do i have to time for it to rest? im such a failure. why is it tt i cant even call someone up and make her tok to me. but i noe for one thing. i may be a failure frm wad u see me now, but im a success in God's eyes. i'll will stand firm onto the ground and have faith in him. i noe tt he will win all battles for me, he will lead me through. and i will grow, to be a powerful person. give me time, 5days, i'll be alive and kicking.

ouch! as u noe i injured my wrist yesterday and today i got PE, and we were made to do push ups. so lyk ouch!!! i was in so much pain! actually i could dun do PE but haiz. i didnt tell the teacher abt my injury so i joined in lor. and alot of exercises we did today we had to use our hands for support so my wrist was so pain! ouch ouch ouch! i was also in tears. i noe when we were doing push ups i was first doing with both hands den my wrist was very pain so i tried to act pro and did push ups with one hand. well i managed to do a few but very tiring...so i stopped. after PE i couldnt even move my hand so i had to carry it back to class to rest. haha. chinese lesson was kinda stupid. we all had to crowd arnd a small little laptop for lesson. there was tis video clip and the actors were so fake lor. reminded me of the mega-matress commercial. haha. lit had test for 'a boat to nowhere' i cheated! haha. for the last question lah. haha. well, the whole class cheated. haha.i was kinda glad tt there wasnt math today. i dun wanna see mrs wong...haha. den everyday see mr tang i getting sian of him le. haha. ok. in the morning so tired. haha. had to go look for house captain. she tok tok tok den i stand there wanna slp le. after tt had to run for science lesson. partner was yawning and yawning made me so tired also. haha. she was so blur during science, so i had to do all the job den she just write wadever i tell her to write. haha. after sch ate lunch and went home with pris and anselina. we abandoned anselina and ran to chase after the bus. haha. so poor thing. pris was so troubled in the bus. cos she lyk tis guy and den she dunno if she lyk him anymore den she lyk another guy. so lyk haiz. i was so confused. came home den the house all dentol smell and so noisy cos my hse renovating now..haiz. i was so pissed by all the noise. tok to lingyu on the fone also cant hear her. haiz. aiyo. so late le. gtg ZZzz. ltr tmr cannot wake up.

off to bed....

accident prone. yep. tt's me. having 3injuries in just 2days? im really great. haha. i dunno how i got my arm swollen, i injured my wrist, and i hit my head really hard into the wall. haiz. and another thing is, has anyone been cursing me for the past 2days? i've been sneezing and sneezing. haha. yep. didnt bring apron for home econs today, so i couldnt cook. and i was the maid of the day..had to wash the dishes and everything. haiz. im the missy ok..ask me to be maid? haha. there was tis band tt came. they were so pro! the drums and everything. haha. there was a hands on session, haha. so cool. there was tis drum made of lizard skin..so sick! irk! oh yeah. i felt lyk a star today. haha. shant elaborate, can move my wrist too much..skipped track again. got gastric...i shld have went to see doctor abt my arm but oh well. i went home and jump jump jump and injured myself. haha. my mum was complaining tt it was all my dad's fault tt im having so many injuries. becos she was saying wad?? my dad did something to affect the fengshui. haha. so lyk she was asking me to climb up and down to move tis here and there. haha. lame..kwanhan called back. haha. so nice of him...i asked the same old qns everytime he called back. 'eh? u're in the camp rite? how u call back one?' haha. i was spouting nonesense to him. haha. hmm. im supposed to befriend cara? i dunno how to approach her lor. i mean lyk she dun noe me i noe her..haiz. will give it my best shot lah. haiz. well. i better get going now..

lit class tmr!

hmm..i noe it is kinda weird to say tis at tis time. but i was browsing through my friendster testimonials and realised tt i've indeed changed over time. wow!

10changes made over the past year.

-im nt spoilt brat you used to see anymore (actually im still spoilt but nt tt bad already ok..)
-i've nt made people angry for a long time already. now i cheer people up.
-i've stopped kicking people
-i've kicked the habit of using vulgarities. (do you ever find me using vulgarities now?)
-now i sit and eat, i no longer stand and eat. haha.
-i dont like 5566 anymore (my chinese has greatly deproved)
-i've stopped buying people undergarments for birthdays.
-now i dont run weird. i run cool. haha. (im a tracker! yay!)
-im no longer soft-spoken (ok. sometimes i am. tt is becos i dont know what to talk abt or im tired)
-i've stopped gossiping (once in awhile i do alittle...im guilty of tt)

woo! congrats to evanpay! haha.
write me a friendster testimonial!

please refrain frm doing these 10things to me for the next few days. (muscle ache!)

-dont hit me, especially my shoulders
-dont even touch my arms/shoulders
-dont put ur arms around me
-dont rush me to walk faster or wad, you think i dont wanna?
-dont push me
-dont pull me
-dont drag me
(haiz. just dun touch me)
-dont push me downwards
-dont ask me to walk about
-try not to use the stairs when im with you. i'll die.

yes. tt's abt it. nite!

i feel lyk backing out. i wanna quit track. but is it worth it? i've made it so far and now i wanna give it all up. i really dunno wad to do. where are You? i need You now..

track trainings are too frequet. and i cant cope with school work and track at the same time. i've gotta stay up till 1am to finish my hw, and i havent have time for studying when my exams are approaching. i used to love running becos when i run i could just throw everything off my mind but now i just cant do it. no matter how hard i try i simply can do it anymore. now i worry. i worry if i can catch up with the rest, i worry abt my school work, i worry abt my spiritual life, i worry abt my personal things.

today i dun even plan on going for training. but i went cos my frens wanted me to go with them. training was real tough today. 2rounds arnd the school, 6sets of short circuit, running up the down the hill (my school) 6times. im having a very bad muscle ache now.

i dont think i can continue in track anymore, the coach doesnt think well of me. i think im going to be kicked out of the team. i really dont know what to do.

where are You now?

firstly, apologies to all those i've made them unhappy. im really really sorry but i gotta tell u tt im suffering frm serious case of mood swings at tis period of time. so please try to give in to me or u can just simply shut me up. if i get unhappy with u for shutting me up u just remind me tt it was me who asked u to do tt. cos i seriously need help frm people arnd me to help me control my temper and everything.

okok. today was a pretty bad day. the class got into big trouble. was trying to lock the teacher out cos she was late for lesson. (was giving her a taste of her own medicine lah) didnt have lessons today cos teachers were all taking photos. yay! got angry with ... and ... for cutting queues lah. yup. was yawning and yawning throughout the day due to nt having enough slp the previous nite/morning. after school had to photocopy the worksheets for chinese teacher den accompany kaiyin go popular. bought a really nice lollipop there. i noe. im childish. hey. im nt 13yet leh. so im still a kid lor. haha. i was really weird lah. was walking in the train lick the lollipop and everyone was staring at me. haha. i've decided le. evanpay would lyk to eat 1lollipop a day. but abit too much lah. so 1lollipop every 3days. haha.

gtg slp now. need to conserve energy.
tmr got track training!!!

just realized tt i havent been updating for a few days after reading fiona's msg. haha. and paiseh hor fiona. these days kinda busy so i go home abit later. shld be home around 1530. haha. and i noe tt some people are quite bothered by my previous entry. (evanpay is unhappy and so on)im alrite. thanks anyway.

anyways...today's update will be abt orientation camp and TRACK! WOO!!! im training with the track team! for awhile only lah. i havent made it in. so continue to pray for me and i'll do my best.

[orientation]
it sucks. i gotta say. haha. okok. firstly. my class is lyk so totally nt enthu, secondly there wasnt any time management, thirdly the programmes werent tt interesting. and we didnt get to play the dirty games! unfair! haha. okok. the seniors were great. peer support leader gotta control ur temper. haha. tt's abt all i can say. i wont elaborate further.

[track]
last nite at around 2130 received a call frm track and field asking me to go for training today with them. mich was playing with my fone when the person called den she picked up the fone for me den she was lyk 'mei! track and field!' i was so super shocked lor. cos i was lyk doing my math hw den she threw the fone to me...haha. so happy! msged lyk the whole world to tell them im going for track training...haha. no big deal rite? im nt in yet. but well...haha. i couldnt slp lah. but sorta fell alsp while doing my hw. haha.

training started at around 1445 and ended around 5. i didnt realize tt im quite flexible leh. haha. okok. ran 2round arnd the school (8hundred metres) for warm ups. it started to rain right after we started jogging so it was kinda sui. haha. did stretching and play dog and bone??? (wad has tt gotta do with track??) haha. we were made to sit down and nt to face the baton. cos they were testing our reaction. haha. it was super funny. cos it was lyk senior called 11, 5 (i was 5) den i turned and ran lah. den the person frm the opposite team grabbed the baton le den was running back and i was standing behind her lah. den she run into me so lyk ya. i scored a point for my team for standing there so blur and letting people run into me. haha. the seniors were great. took extra good care of us. siting didnt join us cos she sick. yup tt's abt it.

[lessons]
change of classrooms. frm st michaels blk to st gabriels blk. so far away! den also change in timetable. 2early days and 2late days. aiyo. i was so happy when other classes had late days when i didnt have lor. now i have...anyways. today got alot of hw must complete. science chapter1, copy geography text bk chapters 5 and 45 cos i nv do one qns for hw. madness. the michelle leong ar...so unfair lor. she finished it in the nick of time and dun need to get punished. somemore she copy my work lor. tt's why i couldnt complete in time. irritating! i was so angry. science we had to play with the bunsen burner again. tis time need to boil water, burn the wire gauze, and create a strikeback. nt strikeforce ar...haha. ok. lame. partner keep 'you do. you do. i dun want. i do the washing up.' den in the end i do all the job and she was unwilling to do the washing up. stupid lah. i risk my fingers getting burnt for u leh...oh yeah. and we are going to teach our teacher geography nxt lesson. haha. cool rite? haiz. gotta go eat dinner and do homework le. nite!

2more days to nxt track training...
3more days to shruthi's birthday..
5more days to next cg meeting.....
6more days to going to church......

9hrs and 58more mins till orentation camp! wow! how exciting! haha.

[evanpay is feeling left out]
why is it tt no one ever bothers to listen to me? why dun i ever get any attention? i gotta find ways to get people's attention. many ofter call me an attention seeker. i dun get it. why is it tt everyone else always gets the attention? why am i always the one at the back doing all the work and nv gets notice? why am i always left in one corner and when one has no one else to play with already then tt person come looking for me for some entertainment? do you think im a clown? even clowns get some attention but do i? why do i have to mix around the popular ones to get some attention? i noe im an attention seeker but do i have to be insulted or get beaten up to get some attention? im really tired. i give up. i dun care if i get any attention anymore.

[evanpay is unhappy with some people]
pls stop prank calling me and stop sending me junk mails. im very upset with these people. and please dun anyhow give my personal particulars to people. it is very irritating to get so many prank calls a day. i tell u. if i find u prank calling me u are so dead. i tell you. i'll make you get a taste of ur own medicine. i tell you im very free these days to call you up every 5mins and make a prank call.

[evanpay is very upset of being called names]
please stop using vulgarities infront of me. or dun even use it. it is not nice. i get very unhappy each time i hear a vulgar word said. i'll just stare at you or i'll just blow my top and scream at you. and please stop insulting my surname. it is a very cool surname ok. so stop it. stop insulting my school. i love my school alot. i can make really rude remarks to those who insult my school. stop telling me my face is fake. it is real. im nv go for plastic surgery or wad. im born lydat and my hair is also real. my hair color is also real. im nt planning to dye it or wad. everything abt me is real. stop calling me stupid. im nt stupid. i'll prove to you i'll make it into the top class nxt year. stop bullying me. i may just stand there and let you hit me let you box me let you pinch me and not do anything. but i tell you. im very unhappy abt it. stop telling me tt im a toot becos i my socks are really high and my belt is really high. u think i want it high? stop saying im short. u think u very tall isit? im still growing ok. and stop saying tt im fat. im trying my best to lose weight already. stop saying tt my science teacher is attracted to me. he is not! and im nt interested in him! stop saying tt im a lesbian. im not! i just dunno why girls are attracted to me. im an ugly looking freak who is abit smarter than average tt's all.

[evanpay is unhappy with her class 1/2]
c'mon people! can u all be abit more enthu? tis class is lyk so super dead! in the past my class is always with the clowns and everything. tis year. sec1/2 consisting of 41nerds and many pathetic teachers who cant seem to get along well with tis class becos they dun wanna help out in anything. no one ever volunteers herself to help the teacher. a simple task to carry a desk and a chair u gotta be made to do it. i dun even noe how we are going to win in the matches during orentation. every morning i step into class and it is all quiet. everyone is quietly sitted there reading their book. i dread stepping into the classroom every morning.

[evanpay is feeling bad for her pets]
i havent been taking care of my pets. i lost my dog and my hamster and i dunno if they are still alive or dead. i feed the hamster lyk once a week only. i wonder why the hamster is stil alive. haha. and everyday i just come home, play with the dog for awhile and throw them aside. and another thing is tt why are the pets in my house all nt afraid of me? tt is so weird. mich didnt even do anything and they are all so scared of her and i am the one who beats them up once in awhile and they are the ones bullying me in the end.

[evanpay is really upset with herself]
i nv work hard towards my goals. i didnt even bother to keep my promise to God. im such a failure. my studies are getting frm bad to worse. im losing all my frens, i hate my sister, i hate my grandaunt. im commiting spiritual murder. im really really thristy for Him but i nv ever bother seeking for Him.

evanpay has so many complains hidden in her heart. evanpay thinks tt she is going to break down any minute. evanpay is really really tired inside out. evanpay keeps thinking of dying. evanpay is losing faith in God. wad is happening??

im sorry but i havent got the mood to blog anymore. nite!

woke up at 7am when we are supposed to pick three people frm three different parts of singapore at 7.30am. haha. wow! lost out way when going to pick leila up. haha. it was really funny. reached church kinda late. almost got no seats. thank God layho got a seat beside her and brendan they all managed to get one more seat for joanna. so lyk yup. the message was as usual great! haha. was kinda distracted a few times cos i was really really tired. almost wanted to fall aslp. haha. after service layho had to leave first cos she had to attend some wedding ceremony. haiz. went for debrief. haha. they had to open up a path for sherrie to walk to the front cos she cant hear. wow! so grand. haha. went to NTU for bible study. had to 2lessons today so as to make up for last week's lesson. i was made to say a prayer at the end of the lesson lor. so scary. haha. was 'competing' with jolene of who is better. haha. gen was singing wad? 'im an usher frm chc. im an usher frm chc. im an usher. im an usher. im an usher frm chc' (with the tune of power of love) haha. was super funny. went home frm thomson plaza after bs. was so stupid to take the wrong bus home. was supposed to take 163 but instead i took 162. haha. was so scared in the bus but thank God! i alighted at yck mrt station and changed bus. haha. took so long to get home. haha. i was eating so much at home and my dad was complaining and complaining of how much im eating. haha. im still growing! (although i shrunk by 1cm) haha. was getting so much scolding when i was doing my hw cos i kept walking abt and looking for food and smsing people. haha. took lyk 3hrs to get my work done and i lost my science hw. haha. hmm..

off to slp...

woo hoo! i survived lyk 1week in sec school! haha. PE lesson. was so scared in the morning after hearing wad is going to happen for PE. but we just took height and weight tt's all lor. haha. after tt went science lab and stone after lyk 35mins den go back class for history. haha. first lesson of history with BERNARD CHAN! muahaha. he is really stupid looking. haha. his slideshows and everything he does is lyk meaningless lor. haiz..oh yeah. got tis stupid gal got tis dead lizard with her and kept using it to scare me. i was so irritated. im appointed chinese rep. stupid rite? i was thinking of being something else lor. haiz...oh yeah. today nv see mrs tan leh. haha. feel so weird. cos everyday confirm hear her voice ringing in my ears den today dun have. haha. maths. learnt so many new stuff lor. cant really rmb them really well but is studying really hard on them lah. lit was cool as usual. haha. yeah. after school ruth and kerlene so sweet lor. they waited to go home with me. haha. but oh wells. i need to go toa payoh interchange to top-up my card so i cant join u all. but i got kerlene to accompany me. was so broke after school lor. mama owes me 20bucks. hurry return! i gtg to le. tmr got cg. yay! nite..

muahaha. 4th day of school. i've got another funky teacher! lit teacher-mrs vincent! woo! she is cool, funky, funny, ok. i've decided. tis year's fav teacher award goes to MRS VINCENT! yay! okok. today did a really really weird peom during lit. tmr gotta act it out lor. i told my frens frm other classes they all say for me got no problem de. cos evan very drama-mama. nt true lor! stop saying im dramatic! haha. okok. today chinese was boring...the teacher tok alot of rubbish. havent even touch the textbook since school reopened lor. den she gave as so much hw. den her instruction nt clear de. i dunno how im going to go do her hw ltr. math was the first lesson of the day. learnt so many new stuff today. haha. so happy...but the bad thing is got alot of hw also lah. so today i got alot of hw. yup. i've asked alot of people to chase me off the comp at 5pm so tt i can go do hw den go slp. haha. mr tang is so lame today lor. he showed us all the science apparatus and was joking and joking. den kept toking to us abt food. haha. weird teacher. haha. oh yea. art lesson. kaiyin and i were bullying the teacher. whoa. tt is the first teacher i've bullied in sec sch. haha. second target. chinese teacher. muahaha. ok...had to make a card lah. den also dunno why she keep coming to our table to see wad we are doing. haha. den kaiyin and i started toking rubbish and started bullying her. she so nice lor. nv scold us. even play along with us..haha. hmm...i shld go liao le. 4more mins to five. haha.

third day of school. sec school life i can say tt it is getting abit better lah. the morning is not tt cold anymore. im nt as tired anymore. the class is nt as dead anymore. the teachers arent as scary anymore. lessons at getting more and more interesting. etc. first lesson was cathetism. i didnt take lah. so i had to go down to canteen read book. haha. today had a math test. i did really badly. 14/20. tt is really bad lor. cos it is lyk p6 work and i forgot how to do so many sums. haiz...love mr tang's lessons. his lessons are forever so funky. haha. he looks lyk flintstone. haha. after recess, first lesson of home econs. did sewing. took lyk 1hr to finish lets say finish... only half a letter? haha. i noe. i suck big time. i dun do housework! after tt 1hr the teacher wanted to take a look at our sewing...at least one letter to be sewn liao. but i onli had half a letter. so i begged my fren to help me finish. haha. she took lyk only 2mins to finish lor. amazing..haha. i think im going to burn the school down very soon. haha. going to start cooking le. muahaha. im going to make the whole world try my cooking. haha. den all end up in hospital. food poisoning. muahaha. okok. had to wait for jopay after school cos she kept asking me to wait for her den we go home together. stupid gal made me wait so long den in the end went town. waste my time. went yck take bus go home. at the station there got tis guy look exactly lyk dwyane. haha. he kept appearing infront of me lor. cross the overhead bridge take bus also see him. den on the bridge saw my bus at the bus-stop liao lah. so i was thinking shld i run or just miss the bus lah. den i decided tt i would take the next bus lah. so i walk slowly. den dunno why lyk so long liao the bus still dont move so i decided to catch the bus lah. den when i started to walk fast i saw lyk the door was going to close liao so i stopped and walked slowly since im going to take the next bus liao but the bus still dun move leh. den suddenly the doors open again den i ran to the bus lah. i tot i was quite lucky nt to miss the bus lor. but den when i boarded the bus, got tis crazy woman arguing with the bus driver. so noisy! i was so irritated lor. den we she finally alighted i was lyk 'phew..' so loud. haha. today eat so much lor. haha. now so full le.

apologies to the people i shouted and dao-ed in school. sorry lah. nt in the mood to tok. wait till i get enough slp and become high. give me time. maybe 2weeks ltr. i promise. i will not dao a single one of u after 2weeks ltr. and to all my 'fans'. stop waiting for me outside my classroom every single morning to wait for me to come school, and stop dragging me here and there the moment u see me. im very irritated.

-evanpay regrets for not reading her bible everyday
-evanpay regrets not doing her quiet time
-evanpay regrets for neglecting God
-evanpay regrets breaking her promises to God.

-evanpay will make it a habit to start reading my bible every single day
-evanpay will make sure tt she will find time to do quiet time every day
-evanpay will make sure tt she will nv ever neglect God ever again
-evanpay will start fulfilling all the promises she made to God starting tonite.

2nd day of school...

woke up at 5.44am hoping tt the alarm clock wont ring at 5.45am. haha. stupid rite? everyone else is still slping and i wanted to catch abit more slp especially when everything is so quiet around...so i decided to set the alarm to ring at 5.51am. haha. weird timing rite? was so cold when i stepped into the bathroom to bathe. grr...didnt have time for breakfast. went downstairs, wore shoes and ran straight to the car...as usual. i was made to sit in the middle where the air-con is directly blowing and when the morning is so cold. i think im going to fall ill soon. haiz..had to walk up to school again as there was a great jam. jo and i were discussing how weird daniel chiang was. haha. no lah. went straight to class when i reached school and as usual. all my fans stood at the door waiting for me. muahaha. ignored them and entered class. sorry lah. dao u all. tired lah. nt in the mood to tok these days. some really extreme ones came running into my class and dragged me out. had assembly. so pathetic. couldnt here wad they were saying. den the national anthem part was funny. haha. not even a single one sang. haha. so one played the guitar and sang after the pledge. it was great. followed by a prayer and filed off to class. newbies lyk us stupidly took the wrong staircase up and got screamed at. haiz...had science for first period. mr tang came in and started with his lessons den i copied so many notes lor. den he suddenly said. 'err..these stuff rite. dun need to copy down. it is inside ur textbook' cos he ask us not to open our textbooks lah. so i didnt noe. ahh! so irritating. helen tan came in and there was english. we were made to write a letter which consists of 300words. haiz...i wrote rubbish as usual. a pack of lies. haha. after tt we were supposed to compete against each other of who can get the correct letter format in the fastest time. so stupid. after tt we started our first ever. geography lessons! it was really funny. at first the teacher made tis gal ans her qns lah. den she cannot ans. so the nxt one had to ans. den the nxt one also cannot ans. so the next one had to ans. haha. it lyk went on from one row to the next liao lor. still got no one can ans. haha. den during recess was starving! nv eat dinner last nite. nv eat breakfast. after i finished my food there was tis gal called kaiyin lah. new fren...i noe she was being nice lah. but she kept dragging me here and there and squeezing me. and touching me. made me so irritated. ahh! den shake me here and there. i almost wanted to vomit lor! now i dun lyk people to touch me le. so dun any of u readers lay a single finger on me! i'll smack u on ur back real hard! muahaha. ok. after recess was chinese. jo and i got the same chinese teacher. she is really boring lah. she loves to write and draw rubbish on the board and tell us wad? she frm china here and there. taught who who who. haiz. i almost fell aslp le. haha. was supposed to have CME after chinese. thank God! we didnt have cos i didnt bring my books. muaha. spent lyk wad 2periods (1 and half hr) setting class rules. haha. the teacher made me think so hard i was so shocked lor. cos i tot of tis one den someone else say le. so she gave me 5more secs to think. i was so scared lor. so i just anyhow shout one out. 'NO LITTERING!' den she accepted it. haha. den she ask me to think of the consequence. den tt one i nv prepare. so i just anyhow shout an ans. 'CLASS DUTY FOR 1MONTH!' den the whole class all boo...but the teacher liked it alot. den i corrected it 'wrong wrong! 1week' den the teacher accepted it lah. had enrichment lessons after tt. had comp lessons. 1st term is comp lessons. 2nd term is drama and 3rd term is guitar lessons. im going to look for people to teach me before hand. those who is interested in teaching me pls call me up by the end of next week! stupid me nv bring wallet. was so worried how i was going to go home lor. thank God i dun keep money in wallet one. my pocket got a few dollars so took train and bus home le. haha. haiz. i gtg slp liao le. nite!

the starting of my secondary life. i dun think i can adjust to it lor. the seniors all look so dao. the teachers all so scary. keep losing my way in school. new subjects. the freezing cold weather. not enough slp. not in the mood to make new frens so im always alone in one corner stoning. haha. ahh! hate it in secondary school. and did u noe i redid my homework for lyk 10times! oh! do until i can memorise wad i wrote liao le. haiz. i noe many might be thinking. first day of school got hw liao? siao ar. but oh well. i've got a really really strict math teacher. detention if hw nt done. u think i tt free to stay back for 1hr look at u ar. crazy! come in den start scaring us with all the stuff she is going to teach and everything. whoa...madness! i was staring at the clock waiting for her lesson to be over. haha. my science teacher was great. very funky. aha. mr alvin tang. heard frm my fren tt we are getting my sister's most hated teacher, mr bernard chan for history. i was lyk so shocked when i heard his name. history was another subject i was looking forward to. but after listening to how he teaches. lost all my interest in history. haha. was at the school hall at 0830. was lyk half-awake only. den they made me sit right infront of the fan. so it was lyk so cold..kept wanting to slp but the chilly morning sorta started my day real badly. did u noe tt i was praying so hard tt i would feel warm? weird prayer rite? i tell u. the prayer worked. cool eh? but it was when assembly was abt to end den it worked. cos it was at tt time i rmb gloria's testimony. which is to thank God for all things. so i started praying. 'God. thank you so much. im not cold anymore' when i was freezing lyk mad. den i started feeling warm! haiz...recess was perhaps the best period of the day. caught up with my old frens. did really eat much but spent a bomb on food. met lingyu at the interchange after school. her mum treat us to lunch. was going back to primary school for awhile but nv go in the end lah. will update again tmr.

Happy new year!!!

evanpay is saying tt 2005 is going to be the greatest year ever!!! yay! it would be a brand new year with new experiences, new goals and targets, new everything lah! haha. i just wanted to come her and post an entry on new year. haha. well. my mum is chasing me off the comp so i really gtg. well update tmr?