whee. im boredd. hahah
monday was awesome..
went to watch harry potter and the goblet of fire with n293
met jeannie and mish there. ha
the siao cha bo's were shopping around for God knows what. haha

harry potter wasnt as good as i expected
they missed out winky!! how could they!!
and yes, cut out many parts. boohoo
i was pretty psychotic i must say
i kept laughing through the movie
even the really sad tragic parts lar. hahaha
liyun and fiona were super dumb. they didnt even know what was going on! big sigh
oh yeah, and they were super scared for nothing. hahaah
shizhen was being irritating. hahah
she kept wanting to tell me the storyline. ha
oh yeah! and i was robbed for my nachos! hahaha. alrightsalrights..

junle's sister came. they totally dont look alike!
oh yeah, junle was super dao..
and the reason for it was..'i thought i shua shuai abit infront of my sis..'
hahaha. nice one junle..
went for dinner with liyun and bunch
ice kachang for dinner? hmm..i didnt get to eat any! poor me

cwbs last night..awesome!
the holy of holies!!! WOW!
as usual..i got the good seats
but nope, i didnt get the middle seat
it was all sarah lee's fault!! we shifted to sit with her!!
i didnt like my seat!! boohoo!! hahaha
alrights alrights..
we were really crazy before the seminar started
snapping pictures and putting on make up
it was gen's idea. hahahah. siaosiao

leila says she's honored to have her name mentioned on my blog
so i guess i should be nice and post an entry with loads of her name. hahaha.
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woo~ haahha. this is madness. alrights

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PRINCE CHARMING, PASTOR YOCK KIANG!!! :D

man, love really is blnd.
sometimes we can really choose the most peculiar people to love. ha.

service today was awesome.
i loved the message. FOCUS
i really gotta start getting my focus right..
align my will with God's will!
praise God, i really needed that message.
(leila who know why. haha.)

he's back for good i guess
i dont really have a good feeling about this
i guess we cant even cont. being good frens eh
all the avoidings, paiseh-ing, dao-ing and stuff..
i dont know..sigh

celebrated pastor's birthday after debrief
great skit the drama team put on. hahah
i got the million dollar worth autographed picture of pastor!
hahahah. crap. everyone's laughing at me for that. hahah
i can sell it for big bucks k..hahah. dont come begging me for treats :P

im sick!! bad throat and nose
argh..korean trip's approaching soon
i dont really feel like going i guess. big sigh

CONGRATS TO VANNY HENG FOR GETTING INTO CAMPUS SUPERSTAR - ROUND 2!! WOO~~ hahaha. :D

wow, today was amazing
pst ulf's sermon got interrupted by the holy spirit
so he decided not to preach further and let us worship more
it was because a few of us werent exactly spiritually right and we neede help
those who needed help, which included me went down to the stage there to kneel and repent
i totally cried my heart out. praise God! im turning back into Your embrace! :D

mastero monopoly was great
i enjoyed myself pretty much i guess..:D
we were being cheapo for going to expo for free food (food exhibition)
hahaha.

went for dinner after that and thanks liyun!! she was so nice as to treat me to dinner!!
tom yum noodle. hahaha. liyun and liwen lousy, cannot take hot. hahah. :P
i went home super late. i was so scared that my dad would kill me
but praise God! i got away with just a little nagging!
now i know what it is like to really lean on God and receive His blessings! :D

how great is our God..

i cant help to think how i am gonna react after this 6months of seperation
am i gonna go into a spiritual and emotion breakdown again?
or am i gonna stay alright and everything's gonna be fine?

you know honestly i know that i have yet to let go
i want to but i guess im just tangled in
but one thing im certain of is the tangle's not so tangled already

but is that tangle gonna get back to it's tangled tangle
or is it gonna continue lossening as it is now

i guess i really have to grow up already
gotta stop thinking emotionally but intellectually already
i've been so childish..

but dont you agree that we enjoy being childish
it is when we can somehow sense a security..
a sense of importance..
it is when we can somehow sense love this way..
our parents coming to love us cos of that childishness
we get more attention cos of that childishness..

but really..i have to grow from glory to glory dont i
i have to get prepared..
i have to start growing up to take greater responsibility dont i..

i dont know..i am confused again..
sigh...

Wow, the tabernacle was great
I got the best seats in the hall again..haha
right in the center of the hall!
special thanks so auntie lee for that!! :D

His will is my will and im gonna and fulfill it at all stakes
im gonna(actually I have already) dedicate my life to Him once again
im gonna let it all go. I must not let Him down again
He's been so faithful to me and i know i can too
im not gonna let my foolishness pull me down
i wanna grow. i wanna aim higher. i wanna shine for Him, like stars above
im gonna burn like the sun for Him.
i wanna be there to share to share weal and woe with Him
im not gonna forsake Him ever again.

Jesus i love You!!

happy birthday daddy! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!! :D

I cant help to think but wow
all the secrets are being revealed now
I guess it's just a time for betrayal eh
I guess we just cant trust anyone can we? Ha.

apology not accepted..

i finally realized that i really love God so much
i just cant bring myself to hate Him..
because He is the only one who truly loves me

cwbs was great. the tabernacle
pastor kong prayed after the seminar
we prayed about letting go..i cried a lot a lot
i cried out to Him to take away all the hurts, all the hatred
special thanks to jeff for prayer for me too :D

i had a very weird dream this morning
i dreamt that i tackled the devil down
i defeated that little twirt
i defeated all my hurts and failures

had prayer meeting at home today
it was pretty much of a success i guess
i couldnt feel anything..is it because im not forgiven yet? sigh
my crazy cellmates wrecked the place. ha.
the maids are gonna have a hard time cleaning it up. haha
we played murderer and chi kou pei. hahah.
it was super funny..junle was really dumb though. ha
we didnt have enough food to go around though. ha, famine
we had to survive on the really salty soup that jeff and sandy loved.

everyone's gone now and it's all quiet again
im afraid my thoughts go floating and i start thinking again
sigh. help me God!!

this entry suck. hahah.