whee..today was pretty boring
i woke up at 9+ after the much nagging received from my mum
bugging me to wake up to have breakfast. hahaha.

read a little of 'the rainmaker' - it's a darn good book!
stoned in grandma's room and was jotting down some stuff
oh and i was eavesdropping on my neighbor's blasting jay chou songs
hahaha. it was freaking loud that i could hear so clearly..
so i switched off the tv and the radio and listened to the songs while i continued reading. hahaha
im retarded..but hey, i got free music! hahaha

went down and sat infront of the tv with my nice book and a small bowl of cereal
started munching on it and watched tv..some retarded undercover cop show thingy. hahaha
i was chased off to tidy up the room moments later..to prepare for cny..

packed and got sian so i decided to go down and look for food..again
munchmunchmunch and cousins came to visit. bet they mistook today as cny. hahaha

took a quick shower and headed off to conrad for dinner..
the manager sounded like an ang mo grandfather telling bedtime story..hahaha
we got to the south room and stoned till the food came..
seriously, i didnt enjoy the food..fire the chef! hahaha.
oh yeah, i burnt a hole in the tablecloth! (shh..dont tell them. haha)
i was playing with the candle they put right infront of me!
and the paper i happened to be holding caught on fire!
so by instinct, i threw the burning piece of paper onto the table,
hoping i could just finish it off with my breath. hahahha. but well, it didnt exactly work
the paper continued burning after my continuous attempt to extinguish the fire
hahaha. it was pretty funny when jo warned me about the sprinklers. i was fanning as hard as i could and the whole world thought i was mad, not knowing what i was doing. hahaha

walked around after eating some dishes
man, was i full..especially after that bowl of sharks fin
it was said to be brewed in sharks bone..blahbalbhlahbla. it was quite nice though
but i still prefer the usual ones. hahaha

me, mich and jo went to look for all the mirrors there was to take pictures of ourselves. hahaha
then we found the displays of fans and cny items
so mich and i decided to make many dumb poses out of them while jo took retarded pictures of us. hahaha. it was funn..

got back to the table after i threatened to blow out every candle there is. hahaha
of cos i failed to do so..and so i threatened to burn another hole in the table if i received bad service. hahaha
i was making retarded requests like 'i want to drink orange juice! orange must be freshly picked..and it must be organic! hahaha. and i want you to squeeze it using your own hand infront of me!' hahaha. mich was laughing her head off for God knows what. hahaha
she ordered a glass of sour plum but they didnt have it so i threatened to burn another hole in the tablecloth again. hahaha
i was given a bravo after emptying my first glass of white wine
but i didnt finish my champage..it tasted really horrible. white wine's nicer..
we didnt exactly got to open that bottle of red wine though..considering many were having difficutly finishing the white one. hahaha
desert was some weird fungus thingy which mummy can cook better than them
i was complaining and threatening to burn a hole in the tablecloth once again. hahaha
mum was really proud of herself when i sang her praises. hahaha..

oh yeah..mum looked awesome today! prettyprettypretty!! :D

we were supposed to go to join in the fun in chinatown
but dad was irritated by the jam and so we turned around and headed home..haha

changed out and decided to hand feed my hamster!!
he was so cute!! i left its bag of food on the table after pouring a little on my hand
he refused to eat off my hand! he rather run into the bag of food like a glutton! rahh. hahaha.
oh yeah..he stupidly went to commit suicide! (it jumped of the table and almost died) he scared the hell of out me. ahhh. but he's okay lar..hahaha
oh yeah! it was so cute when i ran into one of the bottles i left lying around the table
evil me shut him in and took a picture of him using mich's phone! hahaha..
well, it got tired and so i brought him back to his cage to sleepp..

im boredd!! rahh. hahahaha

Get behind me devil!

firstly a huge sorry to penny and vanny! i know you guys have been really upset with me for my attitude.
blame it on mrs stepen! i've been real stressed out by her! rahh

the day was fine..i had weird food for breakfast
i was amazed by myself when i picked up one of those odd looking food and started nibbling on it. ha. why cant we just have a normal breakfast with fresh milk and cereal? sighh..
i know why. cos im lactose intorlerant. sighh..haha

school was alright. im glad that we only had a single english period.
oh yeah!! mrs low is actually a very nice person!! im beginning to like her
she's not as evil as i thought she was!! haha. wow..
i felt that i wasted my whole morning in the d&t workshop. drawing and drawing and drawing. sigh
when are we gotta do the cutting? haha

we wasted most of our math period on debating on should we fix our seats or run for it everyday. hahaha. it was pretty funny..
mrs wong ended up with only 10mins to talk thru statistics..but we still got homework!! boohoo

cme was odd..we spent one period cutting out abcdefjhijklmnopqrstuvwhyz from the newspaper. hahaha. then the next talking about sex. uhh..yes, sex. hahaha
first on homosexual..then on temptation (to strip your partner and force him/her to bed with you) and then on petting. hahahaha. yess..i was pretty much enjoying it. hahaha. NOT COS I AM A PERVERT.. AND I AM NOT!!! but cos we got to waste time on such stupid stuff..hahahah

dashed off for english after the much enjoyed cme. hahaha. rahhh. i dont like english!! boohoo..got back my essay. it was not graded. i got 'rain' though..vanny had 'thunderstorm' hahaha. wow. she more power..no idea what were those pictures for..hahaha. mrs stepen (right?? i havent figured out her name yet.) just kept talking and talking and talking about i dont know what..then 'RINGGGGGGG' lesson's over! yay!! we didnt have homework from english today! hahaha.. :D

rushed off for history..well, actually we didnt really have to rush cos the homeroom for history was just beside the english classroom..i had a stool!!! where did my chair go!! boohoo..mrs yusof didnt come today. mr stanley lim came to stand in for her. he's really weird. he just keeps walking about the classroom and giggling at us. uhhh..right. we had to finish a sum of homework that we werent taught of. wow..great teacher eh. she reminds me of mr chan. sighh

school officially ended at 1.50pm. i was made to go out for lunch with pris and denise. BUT! someone wanted me to go popular with him so i rejected their offer. quickly ran up to my locker, shoved my books in and ran off to the interchange. and then! MR TAN HANSHENG WAS HAPPILY PLAYING BASKETBALL WITH MR HO JUNLE! and so i ran there for nothing.. and i rejected my nice lunch offer for nothing!! boohoo hansheng! hahaha. nah, it's ok lar. (:

went home after failing to meet our dear friend. i spent my whole afternoon staring blankly into the tv..man, they sure do show retarded shows. hahaha. oh yes! mummy we gotta go ntuc to restock!! there's no more food at home!! im hungry!!

i need foodd...

i havent been really spiritual this days, since 2006 started. sighh
today as i began to repent and seek the Lord. wow! He struck me like a mighty wind!
i fell onto my bed and cried and cried. i couldnt stop crying and i started telling God how sorry i was..wow, im glad to have the Lord back in my life! i am nothing without Him. :D

whee.. the first cellgroup meeting of the year! and the first cellgroup meeting of N330!!! woo~

cellgroup was awesome! the games, the praise and worship, the sermon. wow, im amazed by what szefong, fiona and the rest have done. planned out the ministry all by themselves and stuff
that's the way! to serve without being asked! :D

i shared offering messaged today! it sucked! i was really really nervous
didnt know what i was talking about! i just rushed through and missed out loads of stuff! sighh

fellowshipped..yay! we've got nice mushroom soup while n293 only had unhealthy tibits! hahaha.
oh and we were all stuck in jac's house cos of the really heavy rain. hahaha.

im joining usher! aint that amazing! how i used to critisize usher and now im in it! hahahah

alrights, im tired..im off! :D

wow, today when i was on my home from school
the MINDS yio chu kang gardens children were having an outing..
i think it's part of their course to learn to travel alone is it..
i dont know. haha.
when i board the bus i was like 'wow, why the bus so crowded'
looked around and found that half the bus was filled with them

i was amazed by them
how disciplined they were..
i could tell some of the others were looking down on them
feeling disgusted by them but they're really really cute!! hahaha. and seriously amazing!

just look at them
they are not like the people we see these days
running away from our problems!
they face it bravely!
and despite knowing that the problem's gonna be a long term thing
they stay positive and optimistic!
imagine how proud i was to be in the same bus as them!
hahaha.

dont judge a book by it's cover
dont you think you are so great just cos you're perfectly alright
i checked the school up
the children are doing amazing things!

for instance - At the 4 th National Track and Field Championship – 2 golds, 3 silvers and 1 bronze were bagged.
how about that!! how many schools can achieve this???
more achievements!
-At the 3 rd national Junior Swimming Championship, 1 gold was bagged.
-2 silver medals were won in the Bocce competition held in Taiwan by the Special Olympics.

im truly amazed! hahaha..
i was then reminded of city harvest jams church
how the church is also making a difference in the people's lives
and how these people are making a difference in the world

im motivated to do more! hahahah..

I GIVE
Come and fill me Holy Spirit
I seek the warmth of Your embrace
Lord I'm longing for Your presence
Just one touch of Your grace
I'll keep on waiting, waiting on You

All my life I've searched for heaven
My heart it longs for so much more
A love so true, now I've found it in You
I'll keep on waiting, waiting on You

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
I offer to You
For only You can satisfy my longing
Jesus You're all I desire

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice I place at Your feet
More than what this world offers
You are my only treasure
My world means nothing without You

My world means nothing without You
My world means nothing without You

ALL I NEED IS YOU
Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak, won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray
Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord, is You Lord
All I need is You
All I need is you Lord, is You Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your Spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your son
Gave his life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You
All I need is You
All I need is You

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold ... You hold

im tired!! boo..bad sorethroat now

vanny didnt come to school today! get well soon dudette!
lessons as usual. im glad that i actually had a brain that could absorb stuff!
hahaha. yes, i've been more hardworking lately. and i hope i'll cont. to be. hahaha
i gotta get into triple science!! rahh..

school was sad without you vanny! but thank God i still had penny. hahahah
penny vanny. hahaha. okayokay
a change of timetable today. rahh..school's gonna be terrible
all study days!! at least timetable now is slack..rahh..cant we just stick to the old one..
sigh.

wrote a really really terrible compo for chinese today!
i tried squeezing in all the cheem words but sigh, brain aint working well today
stayed back for awhile to finish up my work and rushed down to town to meet mich
sigh..i had a hard time looking for mount elizabeth and the annoying clinic. ha.
but! the smart me still found it!! :D hahahaha

visited the dentist and shopping shopping shopping! :D (wow, repetition! linguistic skils! hahah.)
shop like siao lar..i was damn tired. then went to fellowship with leila,bk,sophie
hahaha.it was pretty fun lar. then we went esplanade to eat at baker's inn. hahaha. now called bakerzin. hahaha.

fell asleep on the way back home in bk's car. im glad i didnt snore or drool. hahahah
yay. im tired and i can fall asleep with no problem! hahahah.

okays..i must get sleeping!
friday the 13th's gonna be over soon! hahahah

im sorry i cant be..perfect...

today's a horrible day! the end!

'linguistic skills!''prettyprettypretty, NOT uglyuglyugly!'

whee. currently at vanny's house slacking!!
ahh..loads of homework to do!! i wanna slack! rah. haha
oh yeah, i've finally taken ill - a little sorethroat and slight cold
i should be alright! huge thanks for all the concern given! :D

school was alright..i think cos it's cos of the slack wednesday timetables! yay. hahaha
rah. loads of homework to do! two design drafts for d&t, math homework, newspaper cuttings, and i dont know still got what. hahahha

yay, ate nice meatballs for recess! i was starving lar.
i dont understand why i only ate meatballs when im starving
hahahaha. maybe cos it's cheap eh. hahah. salad's nice! go try!
dont judge a book by it's cover! hahha..

oh yeah, ep was fun. hahaha. some learning style analysis thing
the teacher was super weird. she looks like the octpy she held in her hand!
hahaha. but she's nice lar. haha

we got kuna for geography! boohoo. i got laughed at for intro again! hahaha
'i would like to go back to korea cos of the korean dramas' hahaha.
i wanted to say cos of the food instead but i dont know why i said korean drama lar. hahaha
pardon me..
i dont think i'll be enjoying geography much. sigh. boring...

math was fun..mrs wong was being super funny and lame! hahaha'
yay, and i fought with vanny for the seat again. and of cos..i won! haha!
got back test papers..i did better than i expect! :D

oh yeah, after school ran straight to locker, cos i was afraid of the crowd
hahaha. thought i could just drop my stuff and leave school but i forgot my code!
hahahha. kaiying and pufang were laughing at me when they saw me trying to open my lock desperately. hahahaha
well, the crowd caught up and i was stuck in there once again. sigh..
didnt have to run lar..sigh

ate curry rice after school at the coffeeshop behind the school
hahaha. penny was so scared she couldnt go back to school after she stepped out of it. haha
oh yeah, i was being super stupid at the coffeeshop (as usual..)
was pretending to be saying my grace on attempt to hide from stella just now
she wants to rob me of my cash! hhahahah.
stupid camelia stepped in and proclaimed so loudly 'HI EVAN!'
i was like 'rahh. stupid person, call my name so loud!' hahhah
but praise God she had to rush off for track and didnt come kajiao me.
muahahah.

im stuck in vanny's house now! actually i just came up here to take a look at her new 'dog'
but i started playing with her stuff and on and so im here! hahaha.

im so gonna study here.. hahaha
bye!

alright, i think we should stop singing delirious?'s rain down
cos it's seriously raining down too much!!
the earth's gonna be flooded soon!
boohoo..im gonna fall ill soon! :(
someone teach me to use umbrellas! hahaha.

selemat hari raya!
dinner was awesome. we had malay food!
hahaha. yumyum! im gonna grow fat from all the eating soon!
hey! im reminded of my height and weight! i actually lost weight over the hols!
46kg to 43.5kg!! yay!! :D hahaha..

spent the day debating with myself over dictionary definations
hahaha. im retarded. sigh. ha
oh yeah! i realized that i love kinder surprise!
and i love squeshing it open with my drawer door! hahaha

went kbox with vanny and penny yesterday!
it was super funny. at first all i thought of was
'i cant believe im actually spending 15bucks on karaoke!'
and after getting super high which shocked the whole world
the money was well spent! hahaha! i cant believe im actually saying that!

oh yeah! who says vanny would definately cry at 5566 love songs!
she didnt manage to do it with me around! hahahaaha. she kept laughing and cursing at me!
haha! yay! im the ultimate champion! hahaha!
and i learnt how to sing chinese songs! hahahahhaa
ended up breaking van's and pen's eardrums! muahahahaha

ah..im like having sorethroat now..
now surprised..hahaha.

oh and vanny spoke to amoz about campus superstar and stuff
it was super funny. ask me for further details. hahaha.

memories of you came flooding back into my mind once again
im afraid of the day when history repeats itself...

IM SAD!! I CANT OPEN MY KINDER SURPRISE!! BOOHOO! :(

He Still Loves Me (beyonce & Walter Williams)
Took me a while
But I'm finally hereI just wanna testify
Make it crystal clear
See I've been picked out
To be picked on
Talked about out my friends mouths
I've been beat down
Til he turned my life around
Turn my life around

Seems like I always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me

I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shining on me
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me

[Beyonce]
I used to wake up somedays
And wish I'd stayed asleep
Cuz I went to bed on top of the world
Today the world's on top of me
Everybody's got opinions
They ain't been in my position
That it breaks my heart
When I hear what they have to say about me

Seems like I always fall short
Of bein worthyCuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me

[All]
I ain't no superstar
I wanna be for you
The spotlight ain't shining on me
Cuz I aint good enough
but He still loves me

I'm not perfect (I'm not perfect)
Yes I do wrong (yes I do wrong)
I'm trying my best (trying my best but)
But it aint good enough (just aint good enough)
Shunned by the world
If I don't succeed
Cuz I aint good
But he still loves me (I just aint good enough)

If you ain't worthy just raise your hands
And let me know that you understand
That we are all so blessed
To be loved

Stand for him or fall for anything
Cuz through his eyes we all look the same
What will we do
Without out pain

Seems like I always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me

I ain't no superstar
(I ain't no superstar but I wanna be for you Lord)
The spotlight ain't shining on me
Cuz I aint good enough
But You still love me

I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best but (tryin my best)
It aint good enough (I'm not good enough)
Shunned be the word (shunned by the world)
If i dont succeed (i dont succeed-ceed-ceed)
Cuz I aint good enough
But He still loves me (child sing with me)
I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best but
It aint good enough (But the Lord's been so good to me)
Shunned be the word (Shunned by the world)
If i don't succeed
Cuz I ain't good enough (I ain't good enough)
But He still loves me (The Lord still loves me)

No I ain't good enough
But He still loves me (Raise your hands if you understand)
No I ain't good enough (How He blessed you cuz He blessed you too)
but He still loves me (even though I aint worthy)
No I aint good enough (you aint worthy, He is there for you)
but He still loves me (no matter what I do)
No I ain't good enough (I ain't good enough)
but He still loves me
the Lord still loves me

hahahha, now in vanny's house "studying"
went to school today!
woke up at 5am and wanted to go pray
but i went back to sleep lar
woke up at 0550 again and prayed
actually i just ended up sleeping in the toilet. muahahaha

bathed and went to school
the new building's like FREAKING HUGE LAR
I GOT LOST K HANSHENG! hahahah
was chased to the hall by rou urn and met penny,vanny and geok outside the hall

the day has been boring lar. first a 2hr talk from ms tan
oh and before that we had spot check! the teacher ask me to sew my belt! haha
then orienterering (running about the school to look for our class)
then 1hour talk by HOY and ms teo..
then went back to form class to elect class comm and stuff
stupid vanny sabo me so i sabo vanny and penny back muahahahaha
and so in the end the three of us got out! hahahaha

oh yeah! we got the higher mt teacher who looks down on express people for our form teacher
rahh. but haiz..at least we were better than 2/4 eh..hahahaha
oh and we're like having 2form teachers.. name? tan poh yoke and tan poh geok. haha
elect finish alr then went about to look for our subject classes
hahahaha. then vanny damn angry cos she's the 15th tallest in class. hahaha

went bAck to hall for school cheers and we're finally out of school!! haha
im bored now..the other two morons are watch tv while i use vanny's laptop. haha

psst..hansheng and fiona are ________! :D
and i still hate my shoes!! rahh!

muaha-oink

this post is dedicated to jeannie!

hey, thanks for everything you've given to me for the 6months..
all the joy and laughter. im really regretting about the end of that friendship
just cause of some misunderstandings and stuff cause all theses unhappiness between us
i'll really miss you greatly as good pals! but im just glad that we've gotten over that whole thing and are still pals!! yay!!

hahahaha. alrights, continue being freaked out by your rich brat yeah! hahaha. love you always! hahahaha. xD

shoutouts! (again..this is to ijs..)

firstly to my old pals! thanks for all your cards and wishes!
i love you all! (we shall plan 6rose class gathering one day! haha. :D)

wadever! (my old band..)
when's our next performance! i miss you guys! haha. love ya always!

lingyu!
my lobster-dy friend!! hahahha. how has life been! dont get too stressed up k! anything can just call me. you know my number! hahaha. thanks for everything! even though we're like separated but im still glad that we're still as close! haha. may our friendship be as good forever! haha! (oh and i still owe you 2bucks! haha..)

vanny!
my not so skinny mate who has a AWESOME voice! hahaha. hey walking jukebox! you still owe me my billabong wallet! i've yet to forget about it! hahaha. cont staying funky yeah! i love you for all that you've done for me!! treat me more meals and drinks and i'll love you more! hahaha. im still gonna be broke till i get my new shoes! hahaha.

penny!
math genius! hahaha. hey!! thanks for all your love! i know you've got loads of gifts for me! muahahah. hahaha. cont to stay smart in math k! and i need tuitions on math!! you should know what to do! muahahaha. im still sad over my china painting! they havent return me!! boohoo!! hahaha. thanks for all the wonderful moments you've given to me! and thanks for always letting me steal your food when im broke and thanks for always accompanying me to the library to look at food when im fasting k! hahaha. i love you!!!

geokster!
my very loud friend who likes to talk a lot! i heard you're not so enthu in track anymore! dont get influenced by me lar! hahaha. or you'll lose your 100% perfect attendance and be like me..9%! hahahaha.

cont staying noisy and irritating in this new year k! together we can annoy our teachers! muahahaha.

and to the rest of the world..
i dont know still got who to write! im tired!
i'll write again next year k! hahaha.

i love you!

whee, firstly a happy new year to all!
2006's gonna be the best year yet! :D
a huge thanks to the many who sent me messages at 12sharp
im sorry i didnt reply or send any out cos i fell asleep after 'fighting' with my dad. haha
but i really appreciated it! i was so touched when i read your messages in the morning! :D

a new beginning should also carry along new resolutions eh
i've set mine alr! hahaha..beg me to have a look at my book! haha..
and yes sandy, im still aiming to grow! 2cm this year! hahaha.. :P

the new year started out well
dad sent us to church and i heard that he went to church today!!
im so glad about that! hahah.

slacked around and drank hot cocoa before going for service
service was awesome! as usual..haha
the message was great! it was about not looking back!
'remember lot's wife..' woo..scary..hahaha
jac was being scary during service too. hahaha
imagine what sadistic pyschotic woman would do
and you'll understand what i suffered! hahahah.

went home with the cells after service to eat popiah!
hahaha. the cells were super crazy lar..haha.
played cards and stuff till i wanted to sleep. haha
watched tv and they left!
'liu xia wo gu ku ling ding yi ge ren!!' hahaha..

we ate the leftovers for dinner!! hahaha.

jo and mich are crazy over the new game i introduced to them
hahaha. facial house! hmm..hahaha..

school's starting soon!
everyone but me is dreading it!
hahaha. i guess im just really excited about the new building lar
i'll begin to dread it soon! hahaha.

anyways a huge WOW to my wonderful n330 mates!
your are simply amazing! your actually got everything out already!
im truly proud of you guys! keep on keeping on! :D