i have realised that i've been carrying the image of being a weirdo in school!
i am not a weirdo and am not a retard! i did this survey and they say im only 49% weird!
im below average for being weird k! hahaha
i am just smart in giving really dumb and crappy answers! hahaha

and i am certainly am not a retard! if i was what am i doing in 2/2!
i may be a little dumb at times but i am smart k! I AM SMART! hahaha. yep! :D
and i can speak chinese! im actually pretty good in chinese! just that i am not that on to chinese music and i cant process chinese words thru my brain quickly to sing it out on time! it doesnt mean i cant speak chinese k! i've been topping express chinese. how about that! hahaha! (i bet van must be like 'whatever evan!')

oh and i am not a despo! and i am in no way related to jeff!
i actually do despise guys a little. hahaha. i go for girls you know, ask van!
i told her my p1 and p5 crush! they were both girls! i totally hated guys then!
and so how can i be a despo when i despise guys?
i like one or two people then im a despo ar. i have great guy friends cannot ar.
like that then you go be nun lar! sheesh!
i treat guys as - 'unless you are my pal i stay away from you!' simple as that
your must think until get married, get babies one right. childish ignorant people!!
and the jeff thing is totally out k. i dont go for irritating tallies who stinks in compre geok! rahh
and van knows that weide is just my really great pal! the end!
penny was being really annoying writing disgusting notes in my testpad today. sighh

and i am not lazy and irresponsible k!
penny knows how hardworking and attentive i am during lessons!
i dont sit around talking crap that's why i can get good results even though i dont study! muahaha
and although i always lose my forms and everything, it doesnt mean i am irresponsible!
i am just not that organized that's all k! hahahah
and yes i know im really unpunctual but hey, cant blame me for not liking to take public transport can you.
im a pampered kid who's driven around by a chauffeur cannot ar!
at least i turn up right. 'better to be late than never' can!

and i am not a pai kia!!
just cos i look like one doesnt mean i am one k!!!
hahaha. i was just reminded of what joshua ang said in that 8days magazine
'i may look like an ah beng but that doesnt mean i am one' hahaha
well, at least i dont go about breaking every rule there is.
and no, i dont exactly get into a lot of trouble with my teachers
i am pretty good at avoiding getting into trouble.
when i do it is when i am just really unlucky k.
im very guai one lor!! hahaha

and im sorry but i am certainly not a lesbian
just cos i am always seen talking to some bungs and hugging girls doesnt mean i am one k
they're just my friends! never hug your good friend before ar! if you havent you must be a loser with no friends. and what's wrong with making friends with bungs. accept people for who they are! but as long as you dont approve their behavior i dont see what's wrong with making friends with them! sighh
yes, i admit im pretty obsence but dont you find it a nuisance to run all the way to the toilet to get that pair of shorts in or out. just stand there and wear it on or take it off lar! haiyo! besides, we're all girls! and please lor, dont do that when there are guys around. be smart in being obsence can! sighh

what's up with people and their opinions towards me!
dont like it then dont come near me lar.
change is not that easy k. and sorry, i dont like to change for people
why dont you change to suit me. sheesh.

im NOT sorry i cant be perfect

lalalala~ whee
service was AWESOME today
rev ulf preached about our calling in God
man was the message powerful!
oh then rev ulf prayed for us and the Lord's spirit manifested
cos i can see what the devil's try' to take now

i teared a little before i pulled myself back together
praise God! prayed for Sandy..
things are gonna be alright! :D

went for lunch at macs after service
i thought i was finally gonna have a proper meal
when mich called me to inform me that daddy's picking us up in 5mins
man! i just got my meal and i had to shoved everything into my mouth and rush off
and it was a mc spicy!! i almost cried eating!
ran off to look for daddy after all the shoving
when i got into the car i almost died! mich was laughing at me like siao
then jo finally strolled to the car while i ran! rahh!

we went ikea to look at furnitures!
im so excited about the new place!! :D
(it's only next door.. -.-)
but! at least im finally getting my own room! :D

oh and in ikea, i found a had a bone that was out of place in my shoulder!
mich scared me by telling me that my arm was dislocated!
i messaged the whole world about my tragedy!
only a few kind souls either replied or called to ask about me
i've come to the conclusion that junle is heartless cos he's like the only one who didnt reply!
hahaha.
van was like 'go see a doctor lar! why you go ask your sister!' -mich wants to be a doctor! -.-
hahaha. okay, this is crap
frankly speaking im pretty worried about it
i may sound cool about it, BUT IM FREAKING SCARED!!
please pray for me! healing!! God, my Jehovah Rophe! i need healing!!

yep, im guilty for bitching a little on the phone with van just now
i need to repent now. hahaha
im an evil person! lalala

why is it like girls cant live without guys?
(for some girls without girls) hahaha
people these days are getting more and more desperate
it's not like there arent enough guys to go around
you think this is 'the knife' ar! hahaha.
girls are like more precious than guys k!

hahaha. pardon me my brothers
evan hates guys until she gets over some stuff. hahaha
it'll take some time so be careful or you'll regret it. ha
weide! be careful when you call me hor. hahaha
oh yeah and if you're reading, your shirt's nice! :D

anyway, im still puzzled about what caused the huge arguement!
what happened?? hurry settle before there's any bloodshed k!
i know life's gonna be hard from today on. hahaha

oh yeah!!! im officially rich again from next week on!
and i've concluded that i shall only get money to top up my card from dad and mum on sundays
cos they cant nag at me for having so much money and asking for more! hahah
cos i would have finished the 50bucks by the end of the week. muahaha
im so smart!

ouch, my arms starting to ache
im gonna die! haha.

whee~ im going hiking at bukit timah hill for the first time in my whole entire life tmr! hahaha
woo~ can miss lessons! haha. yay. okay, i shall go rest. im in pain! :(

that You'd never will leave me, nor You'd ever forsake me..

i ripped this off penny's blog!

2nd person to top my list

you ar definitely you

very special very one-of-a-kind
ur irritating at times
dumb most of the days
crappy is ur usual style
but o matter how strange u ar
u r always sweet and friendly in my eyes
u love to eat cookies
and devote urself
to the true church of christ
prayful and religious
but a little to far in extent
god noes u love him
and he loves u to
AMEN!!god bless
[[*u should now who u are*]]
Evan pay(P.S.L.E)

aww..how sweet. but so annoying!
why van's one nicer! penny ng! rahh. hahaha
and yeah, i like to eat cookies but not because of that cookie k!
you guys are soo..rubbish! hahaha..

i shall write one back to you! hahaha

short and stumpy is our penny
always nagging, always noisy
thrifty penny is our banky
cos the bank has loads of penny!

whoo~ im a awesome poet! hahaha

whee~ friday has been awesome
i got into a lot of trouble in school though
first i was pulled aside by my cca teacher for a lecture
but what she said was really insulting k!
if i hadnt controlled myself i'd swear that i smacked her hard in the face!
look who was the one who begged me into guitar! and now you twist the facts! sheesh!

also, i havent exactly got the time to finish up all my homework!
and so, first i was called to stand in class. then i was chased out of class
then i was made to stand again. then i could finally sit.
man, was it terrible.
mrs stephen must have finally remembered my name
considering the all the trouble i've caused.

chinese was pretty hilarious
we were having a huge debate with the teacher about class tee
teachers are unreasonable freaks! rahh
oh and our lao shi didnt know when was the fire drill meant to be held yesterday
so when the alarm went off she was like 'huh? now ar! girls! hurry hurry run!!!'
(obviously that was translated lar. haha)
and she ran to switch off the lights and fans and ran out of the classroom while the rest of us slowly got out of our seats, adjust our uniforms and strolled out of the classroom. hahah
some really stupid people were screaming their heads off 'ahhh..im scared!!!'
hello! this is a fire drill! not a real fire! you wont die! sighh
okay, anyway when we just stepped out of class the alarm fell into silence
then the first dumb remark i gave was 'ohhh..we're all dead. cos the fire burnt the alarm that's why it stopped'
the fact was that it was a false alarm. hahaha
lao shi was really irritated. she was complaining about it for the next period. haaha

stupid me didnt bring my notes for math today
so i practically sat there and stoned while i stared at both the whiteboard and penny's notes.
i looked like i was paying full attention but i wasnt. hahaha
all i knew was dont know why algebra and dice thingy thing. hahaha

science was pretty wasted
we did a few chemical equations
got some forms and we're off!

was at my locker when van was complaining about mish and denise wanting to go orchard to shop for bra and not wanting to go kbox with her. hahaha
and so she dragged me to kbox with her. she treat me! yay. hahahah
we were given this really huge room where i was freezing in there
van's singing wasnt exactly perfected today. boohoo..
and i wasnt as high as ever! sighhh
finally left at 530 after receiving so many phone calls of asking where i was and when i was to reach. sighh
rushed off to bugis to meet sandy and boy were we late when we reached the airport to 'have dinner' with leila, jac and jess. haha
we were an hour late and we had to rush off to expo just right after we reached. hahaha
leila and i got violated by the sisters!! lesbians! hahahah
jess was amazed by how 'pai' i am in school. hahaha
dont learn k! it's not the right thing to do. but im used to it and i enjoy it. hahaha

service was awesome!! 4praise songs and 1worship
atmosphere was really great.
pst ulf was awesome too! we learnt about time and season today!
and the season now is for asia! woo~
the former rain has come and went, and the latter rain shall come soon! woo~
rain down!

im having a terrible sorethroat from all the singing yesterday
plus im like a camel who doesnt drink much water. hahaha
God bless my throat! hahaha.

im coming back!

the whole world worships You..

im excited about tomorrow's revival conference!
and saturday's revival prayer meeting!! woo~
revival will come to ij! :D

i learnt about the fruits of repentance during bs last night!
it was awesome! and we're learning about FAITH next week! yay

the day has been fun
PE was for once really enjoyable! hahaha
we played hard core captain's ball
and i've finally concluded that im really rough
cos i almost killed a few people today. hahahah
i love my team! you are awesome people! woo~

and anselina! stop reminding me that im fat k
i'll try to slim down one day when i have the time. rahh!
i was really uncomfortable for the rest of the day
i was really really sticking considering how much i perspired during PE. haha

we had english CA today
i wrote out of point! something about family weakening and stuff
i was to write about my stand for both points but i ended up critising the topic. hahaha
my essay was pretty badly written. im bound to fail. sighh
God!! help me! i know that when You're around, no matter how bad my circumstances are im gonna make it through! because You are with me!

oh yeah! yesterday's mass was awesome
my favourite verse came out!
'And I also say to you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build My church, and the gates of Hades shall not prevail against it.'
woo~ Jesus rock! :D

i didnt go for guitar again
im feeling really guilty
and i dont know why!! i wasnt like that in track..hahah
im sorry peiying's mum!!
but i really wanted to attend these 2days!
i brought my guitar! everyone can witness to that!
but something cropped up so i couldnt go..

had lunch and went to van's house AGAIN to do project
geok and i were really awesome. we just stepped in and grabbed all the food and drinks we wanted and went into the room. hhahaha
im a big fat fat! i ate non-stop. hahaha. ask penny
she was complaining about me turning obese. choi! hahaha.

it was really fun in van's house
sitting around, doing a little gossip and laughing out heads off
praise God for hardworking people like cheryl and penny to finish up the work while we slacked. hahah
oh and i played x box with geok!
im pretty smart k! i overtook geok despite my stupid-ness
and i won!! woo~ hahaha.
im an extraordinary youth!!! :D

oh yeah, thanks van for all the newspaper we ka-po from your house. hahaha
darn english and geog newspaper cutting!! rahhh

i've got loads of uncompleted homework!!
i shall get off now. hahaha. bye now! :D

there's a time for everything
even for letting you go, and i guess now is the time..
i'll miss you like crazy.

you're amazing, incredible, fantastic, awesome!

whee~ everyone's complimenting me on my lovely smile
hahaha. but sorry to say i cant smile so much at the moment
when i smile my ulcers tear and it really hurts badly
so i shall only wear that awesome smile of mine when necessary. ha

oh and thanks sandy, for reminding me how tall i am
taller than yao ming eh..hahaha.

oh and sherlynn said im a hot babe, and im gorgeous. hahaha.
that's very unusual of her, but i'll just accept the compliments. hahaha! :P

we got back our geog paper today..
congrats to penny and geok for that fantastic results!
top scorers yeah! i could have been one too!! :'( hahaha
im really glad for them! :D
vanny, we shall work hard and beat them yeah! haha.

tmr's chem. sighh. im terrible at it
but! i shant confess negatively!
i shant let my words frame my world
im gonna do exceedingly and abundantly! yay!! "D

math was alright today i guess
but of all the math papers i say that are easy, i normally fare really badly at it. hahaha
im officially broke! boohoo.
and yay!! this is gonna be the last week for me to be broke!
i shall be rich once again 2weeks later! (i've gotta spend next week paying off my debts. haha)
im like pauper right now. borrowing money to pay for this and that. sighh
daddy owes me $100!! rahh. hahaha

oh yeah! besides my financial problems,
my house's having a little rodent problem!
i spotted one of our little furry friend crawling around the room while i was changing this morning!
i screamed my lungs out and mich jumped out of bed. hahahaah
it was pretty hilarious.
dad was being mean. he kept asking me to put cookie down to chase it! boohoo
of cos i did not! i almost screamed back at home for what he was about to make my dog do! rahh.

oh yeah. im really annoyed by people's dishonesty
why is it that you dare to commit a mistake and afraid to own up
you did not do your work then just own up lar!
what's with having me embarrassed in front of the class alone then running up to me and asking what punishments we're given
what's with the pretence of saying that you dont want something when you want it
what's wrong with you people! you're making me hard to comprehend!

sigh..i must get back to mugging
wish me good luck!! :D

i'll keep on waiting, waiting on You..

whee~ the weekend's been alright i guess
i am still not longsuffering! hahaha.

i believe we're all seriously moving in the spirit
take yesterday's worship for example
and my dream, and fiona's spiritual discernment
and my sister somehow knowing something's up with me
wow, God's amazing. :D

today mich suddenly came up to me and asked if i wasnt doing well spiritually
i didnt know why i was so honest with her. hahaha
told her everything lor. thanks sis, you helped.
im suddenly reminded of elson once telling me that i gotta first make a difference in my life before i can go make one in the others'
and im reminded of that time i told weide on the phone. how can i remove the speck in my brother's eye when i have a plank in mine.
that encouragement you gave, is making a difference in my life right now mich!
something extraordinary's gonna be born! :D

man, i miss that freedom without my parents around! :(
they're back!!! arggh. hahaha. noisy people. sighh
they just reached home and nag nag nag, scold scold scold.
go read the bible lar dad. sighh

i've got a test up tmr
i havent studied a bit yet.
i am still not in a good mood.
i cant think properly with my mind cluttered up with thoughts of you

im still missing you a lot..

i am a huge fat fat!! i ate soo much today!
anws, a huge happy birthday to my pal liyun! (in advance for tues)

cell was cool
we played silly games and go diapers for prizes. hahaha
i gave it to weide cos i didnt want to carry it home. haha
the presence was pretty great today
i teared a little. God i want You back!!!
jessemine cried. i was glad that i could be around for her
jac is a crazy psychotic woman!
she made me finish one whole tray of her pizzas. i think there were 12 of it!
then she made me eat half a bottle of stinky baby food! urgh!
then she grabbed everyone's phone and started snapping pictures of her kissing me. sighh
i was the victim of the day!! :( hahaha

liyun's party was pretty fun
we watched 'la bi xiao xin'
sarah has deprived childhood. she has nv watched the show before. ha
then we walked cheukk to the train station
was sharing with her my life. thanks cheuk for hearing me out! :D
liyun and her stupid idea to run all the way back to her house from the train station! sigh!
fiona is a fat poker! muahahaha.

went back and i made to eat plate of steaming hot rice. hahaha
i couldnt finish my food so i made weide finish it for me. muahahaha. thanks pal! :D
he is a disgusting person who doesnt pack his bag lor! go dig his bag and you'll understand. haha
oh yeah! have i mentioned that gen is darn cool! she just went about talking to the whole world!
man, that is what i call going all the way out to reach out!
cut cake and we had to rush off. boohoohoo. cos fiona had to be home by 10
and the kind hearted me sent her home! hahahaha

we were discussing about several stuff in the car
it's been a while since we caught up with each other
i appreciated the short 30mins with you! :D

reached home pretty late and went to bathe with jo and mich
(i bathe with my sisters k. dont ewww)
we were discussing about how God has blessed us and raise us up
we were sharing about how we've been looking for a need in out friends' lives and meeting it
yeah, it was pretty meaningful. hahaha

i am sitting in front of the comp,
bored and tired right now..i shall go snore. haha
nights! :D

i miss you to bits..

im not feeling it anymore
where is my God?
i fear so much that i have already come to the place of no repentance
or maybe i am already there. i dont know

we had no school yesterday. whee~
went back to school to do science project though
it was pretty crap though, no organisation!
hahaha. but anws, sorry guys for being so late! my apologies! :'(

had geog and history CA today.
i didnt study for them at all
not that i was lazy or what
but i was in a really bad mood
things just arent right for me these days
i keep crying for no reason.
i thought i was crying cos i was in the presence of God
but i doubt so now. haha

CA went on pretty smoothly i guess
i didnt last minute revisions
i caught most of it so i guess i'll at least be able to scrape a B for geog
i dont know that for history though
i couldnt recall dont know what developments and stuff stuff thingy
i just crapped through the whole essay
wrote about the Suez canal and the ports and trades..not my fault that that was all i could recall that sounded relevant right. i just write what comes into my mind. i cant leave the paper blank can i..sigh

i got 14.5 for my chinese CA. missed a1 by 0.5 marks. sighh
blame it on that darn 'zhao' word thingy. rahh! one more stroke and i get a nice A1 on my report book for chinese. sighh
i hate chinese!

vanny is sick again
sighh. you gotta build up your immune system dude
im worried for her
especially in the midst of common tests
sighh. recover soon yeah? :D

oh yeah. geok, van and i are feeling really guilty about not patronising the prawn mee stall anymore
but hey. it's not mine and van's fault that we're balding cos of the msg filled soup right. sighh
penny's a heartless freak who doesnt feel anything despite the auntie's kindness to her. sighh!
muahahah. okay lar, joking lar. haha

oh yes, i was meddling with my phone on the way home
man, do i have many useless contacts in my phone
i spent 1/2 hour deleting and clearing up my phone
it's much faster now. hahaha

decided that i went to surf the net while i was in the car
man, it was so retarded. i couldnt enter the sites i wanted unless i used google to enter.
but it's okay lar. waste time. ha
was trying to tag blogs on the phone and it worked! yay, how exciting. haha

i spent my whole afternoon listening to disney songs instead of mugging for science and math
how nice.

im finally finishing the rainmaker! hahaha.

i am late for project work!! rahh..hahaha.
sleeping is gooooddd. hahahah.

i woke up at 0642 today! yawnn
had to go to church with jo early today lar
plus leila wanted to speak to us at 8
i was stoning at foyer 3 till the rest of the world came
the rainmaker is a nice book. hahaha
coffee bean opened so late!
i was thinking of sitting there sipping a cup of coffee while i wait
but my plan didnt work out lar. rahh. haha

service was awesome as usual
pastor kong's really amusing. hahaha
and yes, the great prophet jeffrey wong was 'prophesying' what was gonna come next in the sermon (the sermon has been preached before)
pastor is a good actor. hahaha

whee. im back early today!
was in a pretty bad mood lar
imagine i insult you and treat you like a dog
would you be pissed or not. i am offended.

just stepped into the house and the first thing i saw was mum cooking noodles for dad
and both of them exclaiming 'wow! why you come home so early! sighh. cant you see we're trying to spend some quality time together on valentines day..'
sighh. then i was like 'huh. orh sorry then. then your give me money i go out now'
then they were like 'huh. then you stay lar. you stay'
right in your face! hahaha..

im a fat fat
im eating darn a lot
i finished around 2.5 packs of noodles
im gonna grow darn fat. sighh

im bored.
i wanna eat some more
there aint food left at home

oh yeah. i shall thank weide here
thanks bro for being there for me when i was in the darkest moments
that phone call was exactly what i needed.
thanks for making me laugh and cry at the same time
thanks for opening me up
i am gonna push open that door!
rain down! rain of blessing eh! haaha..
yes, i've moved on! :D
man, you are darn anointed. rahh. hahaha
im catching up dude!
now that i've cleared out my mind for God
im gonna be darn spiritual now! hahaha
yes, im sorry i made you wake up late today cos we talked thru the night
but i woke up at 0642! so there's no reason for you to wake up at 0837! hahaha

i shall go stone somemore. hahaha
oh..here we come!

if love was a game, i want an out

i've been in a really really really terrible mood these days
provoke me and you die. blame it on XXXX for the sleepless nights. sighh

school was boring
first two periods was PE. jogged 6rounds around the track
we were supposed to exercise 60% of our AEHR. i didnt 50+% and i was dying already
conditioning was pretty crap too. i didnt have enough space!
first i almost kicked michelle's face. then i almost molested dor without her knowing
then i almost killed van with my legs. rahh. can blame me for being fat right..
speaking of being fat, MICHELLE YOU ARE NOT FAT. ahahha. yess.. :D
we played bball. wow, im not that scared of balls anymore! i find the satisfaction in smacking the ball away from the opposite team. muahaha. it just feel really awesome

we had chinese. lao shi was talking about 'i not stupid (1,2)' for like the whole period
and she practically got all the characters wrong. sighh. lao shi, you gotta keep yourself updated.
i just found out that im really pro in escaping from lao shi to not hand up my homework. muahah

geog was pretty mad. we only had like a few seconds to scribble down tons of notes. so it was really really siao lar. sighh. cos CAs next week, the teachers are rushing to finish the chapters. sighh. plus i left my pencilcase in chinese class! so i had to borrow stationary from penny. hahaha. the bell saved us as usual, rushed back to class to finish up math. and in the end, we didnt have to hand up the work cos mrs wong didnt exactly have the time to teach today. she had to bring the netball team out for competition. yay, we missed math lessons. muahaha.

science we discussed about the project and stuff. miss lim is the really enthu and 'yes, can do! good. interesting! good!' while miss siew was the 'uh. what is it that your are doing? i find it too simple, i think your will be marked down. cannot lar, no good' and so we decided that we might as well dont ask miss siew and go directly to miss lim. muahaha.

english was as usual fast paced and stuff. we had homework today! boohoo. we had to write about aspiration and stuff. and the first thing that came into my mind was - aspirin. dont ask me why. hahaha. wrote rubbish. oh i quoted what pastor kong said. 'your (i forgot what) either makes or breaks you' then i stretched the point..muahaha. so proud of myself. haha.

math, then we rushed off to have lunch in the coffeeshop behind the school. hahaha. i remember vanny and penny abandoned me and rushed off! i took out everything i need to shove in my locker and ran after them like a siao cha bo. my uniform was all messy, my bag dragging on the floor, a pile of books messily stacked in my hands. haha. vanny carried my bag for me! yay. haha. :D shoved my stuff in and we chiong off. haha. i went to vanny's house to steal her new year goodies. muahaha. then we went to eat prawn noodles with loads of chilli with penny and geok. hahaha. it was pretty funny. penny and geok finished their noodles in minutes and van and i were struggling to eat cos it was really spicy! my tongue was totally numb. then i accidentally ate a piece of chilli! man! my throat was burning! my ear hurting like siao. rahhh.. van was really terrible. she lost her voice after finishing the whole bowl of noodles. hahaha. darn funny. we went around looking for milk candies for her to eat.

went back for guitar. im like officially the loser of all losers. sighh..
played like siao under the wary eyes of the instructor. scary sia. hahaha
oh and yay! i was praised time and time again while vanny was not! muahahah. hahah
the sec ones that were stuck with us were almost darn funny. hahaha.
van kept crapping and stuff..darn siao.
we were finally let off at 1728. my fingers are hurting again!
put back the guitar and we were off. muahaha

reached home at around 6++
ordered dinner and went back to my room
and..I FOUND MY HAMSTER DEAD!!!
ahhhh..hammy!!! i was pretty shocked.
i didnt do anything but sat infront of the tv and started laughing like siao
i think jo was really scared that i would start crying. so she kept comforting me. thanks jo. :D

im alright though. i'll be fine, i promise :D
i have loads of work to do and im still slacking here!
what am i doing!!! sighhh!!

off-

okay, firstly. i've been irritated by annoying people
who has private number and likes to call and leave me a miss call when im in school
if you know that you have a private number, please sms me to ask me to return your call can
it's really annoying to see your phone with tons of private number miss call
i've been receiving a number of it recently and im really irritated. yesh

alrights..im darn ill!!
i've been having headaches for the entire day
since chinese..it stopped but came back during science when we started smelling ammonia gas sighh
my head's still throbbing in pain now..sighh

the day has been alright
just me being really pissed by trival matters
i've been showing attitude to the whole world today
offend me and you die that kinda thing. muahaha

man, i gotta start planning out my wednesday afternoons
i've got nothing to do till 5pm! sighh
i dont like the school library
especially after staying back on two wednesdays and stuck in it
firstly, the librarians talk damn loud!
then..the stupid ignorant people who dont seem to realize they're in a library also make a hell lot of noise! darn irritating!!
today i was sitting in there for 2hours reading my book
then this bunch of sec1s! damn irritating!! gossip gossip gossip! then so loud lar!
i was glaring at them. well, i almost screamed at them but i kept my temper
i just started knocking my books really hard on the table, pushing the chairs around me to piss them off. muahaha
and they were gossiping about shawn lee! that is one thing i cannot accept! hahaha..

oh yes, mr tang was stupid evil today
cos we were going to the science lab when we met him lar
then we were asking him some stuff
then i was like 'mr tang! are you still teaching 1/2' that kinda stuff
then geok was like 'mr tang! why you so stubborn dont wanna teach sec2'
then i was like 'yar!! why never teach us!!'
then!! he was like 'why would i wanna let your torture me for 2years!'
then i was like 'HUUUHH'
then he 'hehehe. no lar, i mean to say your are doing fine...hahaha. :D'
then we 'rightright..' and walked off

then after school since i had nothing to do
i was stalking him. muahaha
then when he finally decided to leave i screamed out
'BYE MR TANG!' when he was walking out with ms mastura
hahaha. then he suddenly stopped and slowly turned around and
'oh! bye!!' and ms mastura turned to see who was that weirdo
hahaha. when she saw me she was so cute. haha. waving frantically at me. :D

i've planned out what im gonna buy for valentines
but the problem is the cash-flow..IM BROKE!
it's darn sad to be broke. trust me.
i had to live on 45cents today! and the cheapest stuff i could find in 7-11 was..50CENTS! rahh..haha
i got hungry and thank God! i had enough money to get me a pack of fries. man was i relieved. hahaha
was exactly paying much attention in bs. kept checking my phone
i need a rest! i wanna sleep! my head's in pain! im dying!! rahhh..

the trip home was pretty bad
no air con! boohoohoo. i concentrated on my book and put my mind off the fact that there was NO AIR CON! and yes, i did fine..
jo burned the room up and the smell worsened my headache. rahh..im gonna kill her.

mich is in japan! im missing her already. hahaha
okay, i have to study now.
happy birthday uncle choi! :D

firstly a huge ewwww to the drugs guy
you should have warned us about the gruesome scenes and imagines lor!
i went home feeling really really sick! rahh

okay, today was that bad..
i kept waking up in the middle of the night to wait for 0545 to come
i slept too much last night..went to bed at like 2130 after i got really bored
woke up at 0544 and hurry grabbed my towel and ran to the bathroom
(i didnt wanna hear the alarm clock ring! hahaha)

breakfast was horrible! boohoohoo..
i didnt eat for the whole day! but i came home and ate like loads of food so im fine. muahaha

yay, i like science practicals! :D
we've been playing with acids these days..
and today denise broke a test tube, (i've come to the conclusion that the delivery tube is stronger than the test tube. hahaha) cut her self and got acid into her wound
how smart..hahaha..
she was sitting behind me screaming like nobody's business
but she was really cool just sticking her hand into the water! hahaha..
miss lim was like 'you have to wash out the acid denise!!' then she stuck her hand into the water bearing the pain! bravo! hahaha..cos i wont ever do that..haha

chinese was pretty boring
i've come to realize that no one but pays attention during chinese. hahaha
we were playing with pris's specs and i was k-po-ing about how much everyone got for their compo. muahaha

geog was as usual boring
you know geog actually trains us to draw well..
cos mrs kunna uses pictures to explain and we take down notes drawing pictures too
my art skills has improved thru all these notes taking. hahaha.

as usual i spent my recess in class rushing to complete those undone homework
i've been a little restless in my work lately..i'll buck up and be like i was in jan week 2 soon! after i clear up my cluttered up mind..sighh

english was rushy rushy rushy (repetition!)
we've been going thru expository writing for so many times that i've become so tired of it
got back our class test today.. surprisingly, i passed with a 19/30!
dont look down on me just cos im terrible in my language subjects k..rahh

yay, today's like the last lesson of the learning styles thingy
i've been wasting 70mins of my life like everything doing this course
sighh..the class was as usual annoying and boring
penny and i were playing while the teacher spoke
then we somehow got a deck of cards and began playing blackjack. hahaha
i won on my first card! muahahah..

thenn..we cont. wasting our life in PC and assembly
the speaker cant even speak proper english and he expects us to understand him
we had to depend on his presentations to comprehen what he's trying to say
it's when the horrible pictures of the chao ta "bak hwa" butt appeared and got me really really sick
vanny cried at the sight of it..
we had to watch videos of the prisioners getting caned..and it wasnt censored
they filmed how the butt split and stuff..irk! im disgusted!
all of us left school feeling really ill and traumatised. man! i almost puked..sighh

i've finally understood why i hate going home by the yck way
although i have to go home by there everyday
firstly, yck is darn dirty! secondly, look at all the stairs i have to climb!
thirdly, i always see the bus leaving infront of me..for instance i ran for the bus today and i almost reached it! when the bus uncle decided to ignore me and drive off! rahh!

ehh. i have to get off already! blogger is trying to fix the thingything. 7:00PM! haha..

WOW. today we had delirious? to lead us in p&w
man! they're awesome!!! ahhh..im going crazy of them..hahaha
martin is sooo cuteee! yay! hahah. :D

today's p&w was phenomenal
i was super high during praise.
pity the poor woman who sat behind me cos i sorta moved my chair all the way to the back
and im sure she must be squashed up to an extend that she had to stand along the aisle
during worship God's presence was really really awesome!
i cried like mad. i learnt that no matter how dry i may feel, there will not be dry seasons in my life as long as i plant myself into the House of the living God!
im falling in love with my heavenly father all over again!

okay, i must mention about this morning
cos you know i've been feeling really bad these days
spiritually also not doing so well..
but this morning i was urged to do my quiet time
so i woke up earlier..i was meant to do it at 6 but i woke up at 7
then i was in the toilet praying and worshipping the Lord
when He spoke to me..especially when i was having this silly thought of leaving the church ytd
'evan, i may always let you choice but this time im not letting you do that. i'll never let go of you. you are gonna be my rev dr. evangeline pay. you are gonna fulfil your purpose in life. no matter how hard it is evan, you know you can always depend on me. remember i once told you that my love for you surpasses everything. remember i once told you no matter what happens im always around. remember evan, your attitude determines your altitude. if you wanna raise up, you gotta check your attitude.' and got a lot more stuff that i find it pretty inconvenient to say here..

then..today service totally related to me
im gonna get myself planted in the house of God
im gonna grow like never before!
Get behind me devil!

wow, martin is really awesome leading us into the presence of the Lord
making us scream our lungs out, making us dance, making us jump and praising God like never before
making us weep before the Lord, having us receive a new and fresh anointing, making us feel the love of the Lord like never before..
i love you Jesus..
'take off my shoes' is a really nice and meaningful song..
it's all for that special moment with God. am i actually willing to give up all of me for all of Him
that is one question that i keep pondering over..

well, we went changi after church for lunch
n293 people are darn kiam right sandy!!
see, n330 dont need to use coupons like n293 did. muahaha.
okay, crapped a lot and i love shawn lee!! he's so shuai sandy!!! hahahah
then went candy empire with sandy to but magic pop! yay!! i love that sweet..hahaha
went home with leila after that..and im home stoning

i really enjoyed the moments i spend with my mum
she's been in a terrible mood..im just glad that i cheered her up
what she said really made me cry..
'evan, can you please put more effort for me in your studies and get good grades'
maybe, i havent been doing enough..
maybe i should study even more and stop going out and stop slacking

my heart shattered into a million pieces when i heard about news of you..

whee! i finally updated! hahahah.
there are loads of draft that i gave up updating k..hahaha.

whee. im back after the new year!
hahaha, alrights..firstly! praise God for what He has done in my life!!

see, on wed i was having a really rough day
i got scolded by my parents for no apparent reason
i lost my wallet which had my ez link card and like hundred over bucks and stuff
then i lost my math textbook and worse, i lost my friend's ezlink card which i borrowed!
sighhh..man, i almost broke down lar

went for bible study after my search for the card. Ft was cool..
we got GORGEOUS sister charmine that doesnt look like jiayu/wenhui/zining for our bs teacher!
i remember she was the one who gave me water baptism bs when i first came to chc. hahaha
okay, after the lesson my mood was much better
walked to the mrt station with fiona and liyun and went to all the passenger service counters there is to continue my search since i had to wait awhile before i could go home
no luck at the nsl counter..i was pretty dishearted but i kept telling myself to trust God. that with God, all things are possible!
went to the nel counter and there it was! the ezlink card! man! was i delighted! filled in all the forms and stuff..file this and that and i got the card back! praise God!!

miracles happened one after another
i found my wallet this morning when i was going to school!
and as for my math textbook, mrs wong loaned hers to me!
yay! praise God! God is good..ALL THE TIME! :D

i went for guitar club today!!
my fingers are in pain!!
praise God for blessing me with great teachers (sec1's) who taught me just now
i took less than 15mins to master what i had to learn for 6hours! wow!
played two songs, kept practicing and stuff..and we're off!
ahh..i wanna go back to track!! hahaha.
sighh..but well, i should stick to guitar lar..im a slacker

oh yeah, my trip back home we pretty amusing
i took the long way home just so that i could have a seat while i read my book
hahaha, yes. there was a praying mantis that scared the hell out of many passengers in the bus!
it was pretty funny.. the first lady who sat infront of it - her reaction..*gasps!* and runs off to the back of the bus..hahaha
and the second guy..lalalala *praying mantis attacks!* ahhh! *swish,bish,rahh* and he got rid of it
i was sitting down there half amused and half petrified. what if it attacked me!!! ahhh
hahaha. thank God some auntie who didnt know about that monster came and sat beside me
and so in a way shield me from that monster. muahaha..

mum's in a bad mood today
i shall not provoke her any further
but she's being ridiculous thinking that i dont study
when i spend at least 5hours a day mugging!
just cause i wanna get into that freaking triple science class! rahh!
and she confiscated all the heaty junk food cos im having sorethroat!
sighhh..but i've been eating it whenever she's gone. muahahaa

oh wells...that's me. hahaha
okayssss, i must get back to mugging and off to sleep!
yay! :D