my home internet's been cut off!
mummy doesnt wanna pay the bills! :(
im using van's comp.
i cant believe i survived through yesterday!
no comp for the entire evening was terrible

the day's been awesome so far
the school was spotlessly clean today
and they called off homeroom for a day
all the bells were switched off for today also
why? the public's coming in to use the school for dsa seminar. rahh
and the sec1s and 3s were out of school just cos their classrooms are in use! how unfair

the school was pretty much in a mess today
with no bells, teachers have no idea when to come into class
and students dont know whether to rush to class or not.
and the language rooms were pretty messed up. rahh

math was pretty much okay
for once my brain was working well for math. ha
oh and some retarded fool messaged me during lessons
(my phone was in my pencilcase and i didnt off it)
it vibrated so loudly okay. thank goodness no one but penny and i realized
hey, i wasnt being naughty carrying my phone around with me alright
my locker's pretty unsafe now - i brought my lock to put inside my locker. how about that
and i didnt see why should off my phone so it was left on. i didnt expect anyone to message..

oh and it was singtel.
messaging to remind me to PAY MY BILLS.
mum, if you're looking...they're reminding me to PAY MY BILLS alright. :D

we're watching 'dae jang gum' in van's house! hahaha
im pretty addicted to it again! hahaha. terrific
and van is plyaing the piano now. noisy!!
it started raining when she started playing. hahah
see how much we're suffering right now?

i didnt go for bible study today!
and i've got an awesome reason for it - i forgot about it. ha

im bored. van's comp aint nice to use
i want my own comp back!!
mum! PAY THE BILLS!

today was pretty awesome
i got scolded big time for my results when i pass my dad the report book this morning
im getting suspended from loads of stuff now. wow

yep, as penny said i was really high today
cos im really depressed - i get high when im depressed..
ironic aint it. but that is when im before people.
the high dies down and im all moody and depressed when im alone.
i guess i just dont want to be questioned about and i dont wanna spoil everyone else's mood

today is pretty slack. in fact, very.
we were late for so many lessons .
science started out late cause of the many announcements and prize presentation.
and so we were late for english.
whee. i got 4/20 for my english vocab test. awesome aint it.
i was rejoicing.
im starting to enjoy my history lessons.
world war 2. three cheers to america for being the smart ones who ended ww2.
chinese was pretty crap. slacked through the 35mins.
i've got a feeling that lao shi's starting to get fed up with me for not handing up her work.
i better buck up before she starts giving my parents nasty comments about me during ptm.

we were late for ep!
yay. i wasnt called up to read - my pronounciation stinks.
vanny kept singing disney on ice song.
yeah dude. we shall have a disney movie marathon at my place after i move k.
we're getting a projector screen+projector (duh!) for the guestroom! :D

whee. sports day's next week.
i wanna run for guitar. i'll bug peiying about it. ha
guitar shall come in last if i run. muahaha.

mid year's in 6weeks time.
im not a bit nervous for some reason.
perhaps because im getting used to failure real quick.
it'll never bug me again. ha.

i hafta plan for mid year timetable and hand it in for pc.
crap. i shant let my mum see it or she'll make me do it. ha.

i was bleeding just now! im dying!
accidently pricked myself when i was taking my phone out of my pencil case in the train.
the compass's needles went quite deep into my flesh. about 1mm.
for some reason after i cleaned myself up i found many other cuts on me.
and loads of blood stains all over my hands and blouse. woo..scary.

im bored. i hafta finish loads of homework
im watching this show featuring hotels. man! super nice can.

im off to watch tv! ha.

whee. we celebrated leila's birthday
it was awesome. :D

cafe cartel was great
i swear never to share a meal with sandy ever again! rahh
hahaha. joking..

im learning to sing chinese songs!
van! im eating rice already can! no more kantang!

i had a long talk with weide last night
i aint doing well in my life
i cried on the phone. im sorry dude
he didnt dare to continue in case i broke down. hahaha
liyun called about 10mins later..weide called and spoke to her about me
it was my second round of crying. ha

thanks you guys
i really needed that call. :)

i stooped in the toilet and cried my heart out
reflected upon how many times i've let various people down
reflected upon how many times various people never let me go but continued to love me

im making a public apology to leila
for the many times i failed to keep my promises
for the many times i've been disobedient and rebellious towards you
for the many times i've let you down
for the many times i've hurt you

im sorry..

i was just reminded of last year
when sarah teo prayed for me
she reminded me about how i can just take off that mask
how i can stop putting up a brave front before the Lord

sometimes i wish i could just drop down and not do anything
im really really tired of what is going on
i havent been seeking and experiencing God
blame it on my hectic life or myself being lazy to do my quiet time
i'll do it soon. later perhaps.

pardon me for my terrible temper
i aint doing so well recently. i'll recover soon
wait and see.

i hafta go finish up my work now
will update soon.

whee~ how exciting
im taking a 10min break from studying for spelling bee
it's on sunday!! so soon?!?!? rahh. hahah
i hafta study like 300 over words in 2days cos i've been slacking so much. sighh

i was on google awhile ago
try typing 'evanpay' into the search engine and you'd find 4pages of me!
oh yeah. and if you happen to enter the 'stardreams.blogspot.com' page,
note that that depressed poet aint me. i changed my url from that millions of years ago!
so dont start screaming or reaching your phone to call me up to dig out something from me! hahaha
i found the 'blogshares' thingy with my blog attached to it!
i havent been buying shares k!
but the sad thing was it was only worth $127! *sniffs*

oh yeah. last night i was away from the keyboard for quite sometime
when i returned to it, it was flooded with so many conversations
some were pretty hilarious..asking if i was a hacker who hacked into evan's account, why then am i not replying. or quite a number of them asking if i was in love. (dude! why dont you read my blog!! :( ) hahaha. and quite a number flooded with quizzes and surveys and url of this and that page, asking me to read (gossip lar) and a few 'HELLO!' you should know who you are. the huge page was flooded with those 5letters.

im pissed!
i didnt get a proper breakfast this morning
i ordered a plate of vegetable and it took like 2hours to get to me
and it wasnt tasty! :(
i had to eat cup noodles to fill my stomach.

*gasp! so late alr!
i still got 170+82 words to learn for today!

will update soon!

it may be over but it wont stop here
is there such a thing as a clean break
how exactly do you achieve that
i need to know..

i've been checking up furnitures on the net these days!
im really excited about the big move - to the house next door
hahaha. yes..funny
mich is being really annoying
she's plotting to take over my room!
first she wants to throw all her books in my room
then she wants to build a walk in closet in my room
dude! dont be crazy! i wont give in!! rahh

im taking a long break from everything
i've been working myself out for nothing all these while
im gonna make the best out of this one week
this week's gonna be the turning point of my life
to turn back and run back into the arms of God
i've messed up and im willing to admit and run back to my father for forgiveness
my ever forgiving abba father.
i know He's gonna patch things up aint it right

i cried my heart out during worship last sunday
i reflected back on what God has done in my life
the many times He touched and spoke to me
the many times He showed me visions of my life
am i really gonna give all these up for the world
ha. hell no!
im still awaiting to return my abba father's side!

i love you Jesus!

im watching a video on majesty
martin smith was still wearing braces! :D
stu said the song was inspired when he was in the presence of the Lord
when he thought of how amazing it was that we can stand before Jesus and come as we are because of His grace.

that is just how the Lord loves us aint it

my msn nick is 'the taste of love'
dont be mistaken, i am not in love.
just that i was thinking..of the sweetness, sourness, bitterness and spiciness of love
how a person can be so on fire and in love with God but when the bitterness comes, the love turns sour.
amazing aint it..

i was just reminded about not missing out on the things that God has for us
about listening up for God for His instructions to seize the moment..
there's so much that i've missed out on because i have shut the Lord out
because i've been so rebellious against Him. im sorry Jesus..

i needa go! boohoo..
will update again soon. :D

and i will sing..

i went to raffles hospital last night
took loads of x-rays and signed loads of forms
my arm was killing me - im a left handler, i injured lefty
they made me sign loads of forms to verify that i wasnt pregnant
hahaha. funny..
the girl in the ward for some reason kept bleeding
the doctor wanted to cut her up. urgh. i was pretty freaked out

my doctor finally came after i was left alone in the ward in the sling for a long long time
all he did was to pinch here, twist there and i was off to the x-ray department
the nurse was psychotic. she kept asking me to turn here and thre when i told her i was in a lot of pain. rahh
but she was pretty sweet lar. hahaha
dr lau looked at my x-ray and simply told me 'no broken bones. should be torn tissue'
then he applied cream on me and bandaged up my arm real tight
dad was being annoying. he kept asking the doctor to chop of my arm. hahaha
my arm has to be bandaged up for 3-4days and kept in the sling before i went back for the second check up. rahh
i just burnt another hole in my dad's pocket. 300bucks for everything
he kept blaming me for being so playful. rahh.
praise God for my mum. she was really really nice to me
i slept in dad's place last night - it was the safest for my arm

my arm's feeling better now
i cant really use lefty..i can type with it though
but it hurts a little. so i've got to let it rest every now and then
mum had to help me to bathe this morning! *blushes
hahaha. yeah. and i cant really brush my teeth well with righty.
i've no idea how im gonna wipe my butt when i poop. sighh

im supposingly dead..according to jo
jiayu's gonna attend my funeral in harbourfront tomorrow
thanks.

i cant go for guitar and dragon boating!
no idea what im gonna do at home. i wanna go out! :(

on Christ the solid rock we will stand..

im in pain
i tore my ligament
my left arm!
how am i gonna write and play the guitar now

all rollerblades should be burned!!
i fell down on my first attempt to learn it
and it was less than 10secs. how smart
thanks sarah's dad and mum who took care of me
im sorry for not taking your advice and not going to see the sinseh
the thought of him twisting and turning my arm and pricking it with needles gives me the shivers
oh and thanks jiayu. you took great care of me :D
and of course all you wonderful people for your concern
im still in great pain! so start praying hard for me
it's aching from my elbow all the way to my wrist! :'(

oh and if you're wondering how i can type, im using my right hand
just realised that im actually pretty good at it. ha

i want my mummy!
i hope she's bringing me to the doc's when she comes home

i shall go rest and wash my wounds now
righty is getting tired!

whee~ i finally got myself to buy a mission bell album! :D
building fund's over and im spending my money carelessly. hahaha

i joined spelling bee! hahaa.
and i've been shoving words down my thoart everyday. rahh
500words by 13march!! rahh..
i hafta learn 85words a day to make it in time for revision before 13march. ha
and till now i've only learnt 30words!
meaning i hafta learn 140words today! rahh.

oh yeah! dont look down on me k!
i believe that i can make it into the finals one lor
and i shall be rich! muahaha
van promised me 100bucks if i got into the top 3
and penny promised 100bucks if i got third and 200bucks+ 1week of free lunch if i won the competition
it shall come to pass! so start saving up ya! i dont care if you dont have the money
as van said, a promise's a promise. and that is for looking down on me!

mrs stephen has been giving me so many names!
yesterday was 'evangelica' and today is 'evangelina' sighh
what name im i gonna get on thursday! hahaha.
is 'evangeline' so difficult to remember?? sighh

we're having a name the tuckshops competition!
i cant believe my 'jia kantang' for the western food store didnt get in!
'wild wild west' is sooo NOT original!!
and i cant believe my 'jia peng' for the chinese mixed rice got in instead! rahh
and rice-tas-tic didnt get in! hahahah. pirated version of fan-tas-tic!
i think i rock. hahahaa

we watched the singapore story today!
van cried! sighh. i was laughing all the way. hahaa
cant blame me for being sadistic can you.

oh and we got our year books today!!
i look horrendous!! but nevermind, cos everyone looked horrible. hahaha
no one outside our school shall have a look at our year books! rahh

jo's watching campus superstar now!
something's up with her. and i dont get what's so awesome about adriano! (if that is how you spell his name..hey! that word's not in the spelling bee booklet k! haahha)

im hungry yet full now!
i wanna eat hello panda!

i shall got learn my 140words!

im proud to have updated my links :D

i dont like today! :(

First and foremost, thank you all for your concern
im much feeling better already. :)
praise God for huge bitter tablets. hahaha.

I've realized that besides drinking water
the next thing I dread is to take my medicine
just realized this morning that everytime when im ill the same things always happen
I'll be really excited about visiting the doc and collecting my MC and my medicine
and I'll be an angel. (im an angel to my mum when I keep quiet) going home to rest
but one thing I'd never do is to take my medicine
no matter how many times you try to make it I would never do it until I get a scolding
the same thing happened this morning
I was awaken really early this morning by anselina's SMS about borrowing my track vest
sorry dude, I didn't buy. Ha. I only got track tee
anyways. My mum was like 'go bathe then eat breakfast then hurry eat your medicine!'
then I of cos did nothing of what she told me
I went down to the living room and slacked and enjoyed my peace and quiet
then at approx 10am my mum came running down screaming at me to take my medicine
but I got away with some weird excuse like I haven't taken my breakfast and stuff
then I cont. slacking until 11 when she got really mad and took all my medicine to throw at me. Ha
it was pretty amusing. but the not so amusing part was I choked on my medicine!
and it sorta dissolved in my mouth. Man was it terrible! I almost puked! rahh

well, after the painful experience mum drove mich and I to jac's house for cg
I attended both n293 and n330 cell today
junle led for n293 games today! It totally applied to him! hahaha
and forfeit was my most hated - drinking water
after Anna shared the message they prayed for me for healing! :D
then same for n330. After Leila shared the message
the cell prayed for me and a few more sick people for healing. yay
I believe I am healed! hahaha.
today's offering message was for once a success. im proud of myself. :D
oh yes Jeff led n330 games today. Thanks Leila for taking the forfeit for me!

liyun finally drove me home today!
after so many years of me driving her. hahaha
thanks dude! You looked pretty today! :D
she dropped elana and I at serangoon and rushed home
elana and I were really boliao
betting whose bus was coming first and stuff then telling each other stupid jokes. Ha

im a naughty lil girl!
im drinking cold drinks when im not supposed to
and I haven't taken my medicine! hahaha

mum's screaming at me now!! ahh

You are my Jehovah Rophe.

im home early!
im ill!! :'(
left school early and went to the doc with mum and mich
the security guard at the school gate mistook mich as my mum! hahaha

the day was pretty bad
i woke up at 4 with really bad cramps and tummyache!
went back to sleep at around 5
and apart from my pms
i woke up late for school today!
rushed off to school and my hair was still really wet when i got to school
darn! i didnt reach school late. hahaha
cramps was still pretty bad

we went for photo taking
im such a poser. im was always ready for the camera whenever the uncle took a surprise shot. hahaah
we totally missed lit today! :D
i did badly for my lit paper..sighh

chinese was pretty crap
i was sitting there in pain and i was complaining to bamboo
'im feeling wet and pain''why is it that girls suffer and guys can be so carefree'
'we should make guys suffer' muahahah.

recess finally came and i cried!
partly because of the pain
partly because i just wanted to cry. hahaha
thanks cheryl penny and geok for taking such good care of me! :D

geok kept feeding me sweets and asked me not to think too much
cheryl went to get hot water for me
and penny accompanied me to get the permission slip to leave school

left school at around 11.10 in the middle of the english class test
it was pretty weird
i was doing the test when my phone rang (it was in my pencil case)
then i was wondering if i could pick it up
i mean although i was sick and was allowed to use the phone
but it was during the test!!
i was staring at my phone and kept rejecting the calls
then i looked around to look for help but everyone was too busy scribbling
so i had no choice but to just jump out of my chair all of a sudden and ask for permission to leave
mrs stephen was really nice to me today! :D
i was to take my paper back and continue the test at home myself

went to the doc
and the nurse was having fun talking about all the facial stuff
then mich was reading the magazines and me, stoning in pain! hahaha
did a little check up and all the doctor said was 'wow, your stomach very active yar'
right..

and i got a bunch of medicine to eat!! boohoo
i could have just went home to take a panadol!
but no! the doctor had to link the whole thing to the diarrhea i had for the past 2days
and now i've got loads of medicine to eat. sighh

yay, the nurse said my teeth's really beautiful!
no braces!! :D hahaha

im bored now!
im waiting for my friends to call to tell me my science paper results
im scared. God help me!!

oh yeah. congrats to the 2/2 superstars! :D
penny,geok,vanny,natalie! :D

im sharing offering message again this sat!
come support me! hahaha. :D

and now, bring it on bitter medicine!

i love hello panda!!
why the sudden craze?
i found a huge box of it when van bought her magazine after school!
i got so excited cos i havent seen one of those for such a long time!
my favourite primary school snack!!
fished out my wallet and bought it!! woo~

then for the rest of the trip to tp interchange i was really quiet
reason was i was too engrossed eating my hello panda!! hahaha
van thought i was a total weirdo when i was whining about having no more hello panda after i finished the whole box of it. hahaha
buy me hello panda for valentines next year! hahaha

i felt that i ate my lunch alone k!
even with van's presence!
sat in mos burger opposite van and her stupid magazine
it was the best lunch i've ever had dude!!!
i've never tried eating lunch like this in my whole entire life can!
that idiot kept reading that darn magazine featuring campus superstar and left me to eat in silence! rahh
my only company for that dreadful 25min was my dearest phone!
roar van! roar!! im never gonna let you buy any magazine before we lunch out!
one smart thing i did was to spit ice at her. i should have shot more of it!
i almost died after she finished can. rahh

oh and the stupid woman bought an angela album just for that odd catarpillar song.
waste money can! and she refused to accept my 95cents that i intended to bless her with. hahaha
darn woman!!
and she was complaining that i rather bless her with 95cents than spend 45cents on a one stop bus ride! if my aunt was with you you would have died dude! sighh

dad's ill! he lost his voice
hahaha. im evil!
but it's really funny cos his voice is really squeaky
and he cant scold me now cos i'll just imitate him and he'll just give up on me. muahaha

there's stupid retreat tomorrow
they're wasting 6hours of my life on that! sighh

miss lim announced that there were 14 failures for science!
i am soooo sure that im one of them! die!! God help me!!

sandy just reminded me that i've got loads of readers!! :D
thanks for all your support!
firstly i wanna thank my ah gong, then my ah ma, blahblahblahblah!

hahaha. im bored and hungry! i just bought a huge box of hello panda again!! :D