oh the irony..

did i tell you i loved yesterday! hohoho
lingyu came to visit! yay, i miss the days i tortured her! hahah
and her dad was like 'evangeline! there you are! i promised lingyu she'll see xiao bai today!'
hahaha. lingyu! we shall go out with gillian sooon k! :D

couldnt sleep last night. urgh!
was kneeling beside the bed messaging vanny and gerald till this morning
praise God, i finally dozed off at around 1. haha

i gotta start speaking proper english from now on!
not only for weide's sake, but darn! i got a new english teacher!
weide, a1's confirm ours la.. hahaa
she's really pretty cool. very unlike the other oldd boringg teachers you see
very hip, humorous and darn! she's damn hot despite having 3kids! and she's only 33! hahaha
geok's ashamed of herself! hahaha. i am too!! im gonna go on a fast for the rest of my life! no way! hahaha.

pe was disgusting
we practically just sat around for an hour plus
and i had a terrible headache after the jog.
darn, lack of sleep! :(
and stupid jeannie ho poked me for SJI!
sji guys are all jerks la.. jeannie, DONT I EVER FIND YOU WITH ONE!
go for acsi! remember?? hahaah

math was pretty cool today
omg, i cant believe i said that. hahaha
praise God, i understood the lesson can!
i feel damn smart now. hahaahha.

art was another slack period
sat in the comp lab and slept while geok tampered with adobe, using MY account!
hahaha, heck la. who really cares about this anyway.. hahaa
michelle,tiara were having a hell of a great time with the pro while geok was having a hard time. hahaha.

rushed home from school and reached home at around 1440 when anselina messaged me
'are you still in school or are you on your way home already?'
hohoho, she was shocked when i told her i was home already
hey, i didnt even go back to put my books and rushed to the busstop lehh
praise God, didnt have to wait for the buses today
they just appear when i reach! :D

darn, i hate myself for getting used to sleeping at 12plus
i cant sleep for goodness sake! i need sleeep! cant sleeeep!!!

oh yes penny,vanny and geok!
i finally got the plaster off my leg!
you guys can stop plotting as to how your are gonna get it off my leg anymore! hohoho
got michelle to pull it off for me just now
i tried to get it off myself but i was scared! so i got her to help
it was pretty funny seeing me screaming when she got near
hey, it wasnt pain at all, so dumb! hahahaha
and i bled a lot! look!


my bloody plaster! and the blood leaked out!!
ouch! :(

i dont know how to clean it (more like i dont dare to)
and im gonna stick another of vanny's plaster on,
and im gonna get scared of taking it out! hahaha.

hey! it's 5already!
i needa go poop and hit the books!

the pain and the agony..

darn, school's back! :(
woke up in time for school with the help of 5alarm clocks! hahaha
bathed and got ready to school! darn, bag was freaking heavy!
urgh! and i finally thought for once in my entire school life that my belt's low! haha
ate a super sweet breakfast and im off to school

met geok with her friend on the way to the classroom and they were chatting heartily when i stepped forward and 'um, yar. correct' and scared the wits outta them. hohoho
the school waxed the floor! hahaha, quite dumb la. like that the floor will get dirty la, somemore it's white can! uhh..
went up to class and everyone came up to me and 'evan! you cut your hair???'
hahaha, nah..i didnt cut. i just didnt comb my hair that's all.

school was very slack today
and i had to start my day off by cutting myself on the calf. arghh!! blood! hahaha
i cant pull off van's 3M plaster now.. hahaha.
(she was boasting to me that it was 3m)
and we had an hour recess to let everyone familiarize with the cashless system
please lor, everyone pay by cash cann.. hahaha
all we did for all the lessons today was talktalk, laughlaugh, playplay and 5mins of studying
yay, i love it this way. hohoho

we had some ij uniform fashion show today! hahah
they dragged all the guai kias with 'neat' uniforms up. so dumb
im sorry but some people like me for example can never qualify for this kinda stuff. hohoho
school ended and i went to ntu with mich and jo for some medical check up.
not me la, michelle's medical check up. we just go and kajiao only. hohoho
dillydally and im home!

i hafta go chiong homework!
haha, byeeee!

i dare you to move..

Today hasn't exactly been awesome..
oh yes, I've finally moved.. From 218 Jalan Kayu to 218A Jalan Kayu
(say wow, haha)
slept over there last night and we had 2blackouts in a row. Wow..
all of us rushed to get our phones and off all the electricity leaving one room lit with all 4 of us, not forgetting the doggies squashed in it. hohoho
quite fun, but I hate it dark. :(
slept at 12plus after chatting with Jo, apparently about guys..
leila's gonna stone me when she hears about it. hohoho

woke up feeling really sick today thus not ushering..
yay, smart me wore the sweater auntie michelle bought for us in Korea
so while the rest froze to death I was feeling pretty warm
alright, I'll join your in the freezing next week alright. hahaha
I wasn't exactly in the mood to praise and worship today..
clap clap and worship a little and I gave up
I couldn't feel anything. I was in a terrible mood so I acted like a newcomer and shoved my hands in my jeans.
yes, if you think there's something wrong with me..There really is
I was having silly thoughts of backsliding..
thinking, a person of my calibre should be able to get a nice looking boyfriend and get super good results for my studies..
I haven't been doing so well spiritually and I've been feeling a little rocky
pray for me and yeah, don't question me unless you know what im going through
thanks

I was chewing gum during service
darn, jessamine was complaining about how strong the smell was
hohoho, it turned bitter by the time service ended. eww. hahah
did i mention, elson looks nice with his new hair cut
but dude, do something with your bag!! hahaha.

destiny my eternity

everyone's discouraging me from joining the chec tuition classes
hohoho, quite funny and sorry brandon chew for ps-ing you.
im easily influenced. if you wanna look for someone to blame, find jiayu..she's the main culprit.

it's funny how people define 'like' or 'love'
having a friend of the opposite gender who is close to you makes you attached?
man, i sure have been unfaithful. haha
and no, im not ready to fall in love with another guy yet, i've got enough problems to touch on that
im welcome for girls though. hahaha

dare you to pick yourself up from the floor

consumed by my own childishness

today's been pretty much alright I guess
woke up to find mum in a cold war with Jo
it was pretty frightening so I grabbed my stuff and went to seek refuge in my grandma's room with my homework
boring! I spent my whole morning doing math. rahh
headed off to serangoon to meet liyun at 12
darn! stupid uncle made me miss my train
I dont get why he must stop at EVERY SINGLE STOP when no one flags for the bus and when no one's there! uhh!
and he refused to let me down when I reached. he has to be exactly in the middle of the busstop before he's willing to open up! urgh!!
ran like a mad dog to catch the train and dang, I had to watch the train leave. didnt meet liyun in the end. rahh!
met liyun at outram park station and darn, I had to run up the stairs in a skirt! obsence! hahaha
liyun did her usual routine of checking my wallet and messages on our way to boonlay station
and I cant believe fiona's scared of me! hohoho, am I really that scary? everyone's afraid of me.
took a cab to church from boonlay and we wasted $3.80 for nothing! we didnt have to attend the meeting..jeff took the stuff for us. -.-
I love jurong west. sweet memories came flowing back into my mind. awww
the superman event was pretty cool. except for the part I lost control of my temper and started screaming into the phone
I swear im not gonna help to book seats anymore. so ushers, dont look for me. im just like one of your. :D
'hi wo jiao jin wan, you can call me tonight!' x)
oh no, it reminded me of my k2 crush whom i forced to take my number. hahaha, so despo! x)
was chatting with jiayu throughout the entire sermon
im sorry I had to be so mischievous. dont learn from me k. hahaha
praise God! hazeline and yan qin received their salvation today! i know i did a great job as a counselor! hohoho
i bet im the first person who lets the counselees fill in the stuff themselves! hohoho
they wanted to k.. haha.
the person collecting was pretty shocked by my capability just cos i took two people. hohoho. im just being a show off here, ignore me. hahaha
went off to jp to see the others have lunch and i left
it was possibly the worst journey i've ever embarked.
first this guy beside me slept on me! innocent me didnt know what to do so i just sat there and let him sleep. uhh!! molest! hahaha
then when the train got crowded this guy stood infront of me and my leg was directly beneath his ahemahem. yes, and when i stood up i almost kicked his you-know-what. hahaha. shouldnt have crossed my legs. well, at least i was nice enough to leave him potent. hohoho. took my legs out nicely and slowly so that i wont touch him. hohoho
man, i sound like a bitch. then again, who cares. someone called me cheap and shameless didnt he.
train on the nel wasnt that pleasant too. this guy opposite me kept staring at me with murderous eyes. hahaha. scared the wits outta me, i wanted to get off the train quick. hohoho
and darn, i had to watch my bus leave infront of me. rahh.

calling out to all sec2s!
join chec tuition with me! mon and sat - science and math! :D
yay, i love you brandon;champion! x) ! join science with me!
hahaha, im such a suck up

it's hard to act as though nothing has ever happened
it's hard to put up a brave front before everyone else
im stressed, im tired. someone save me

what am i doing this for.

whee~ currently at sandy's place. :D
liwen's sitting on me and she's annoyed by how fast i can type. hohoho
liwen says: you type so 'FAST'...
hahaha. it's not my fault that jeff's keyboard's faulty. rahh

alright, the anecodes of today
woke up at around 8plus to get money from mum
i could have slept in till 9plus before going for prayer meeting
rahh, im broke! :(
plans changed when the very "smart" sister of mine called home to get us to deliver clothes to angel's house and thus the cabbing down! :D
angel's house's really pretty! her room's a little messy though x)
(rah, im having difficulty typing now cos some annoying little girl's on me. hohoho)
the note's to annoy her la. darn, my plan backfired. she's jumping on me now! ahh!! hahahah
alrightalright, back to my day..
prayer meeting was pretty cool, EVERYONE AROUND ME DIDNT BATHE! HAHAHAH!
alright, i shant name them..see, im nice! :D
then went down to orchard with sandy,LIWEN,jac,and gang to do a survey for tmr's EVAN
(liwen's trying to act retarded..hey, she doesnt have to does she? hohoho)
it's super fun esp when EVAN pay wasnt with me and sandy -liwen
seee, told ya she doesnt have to act retarded. hahahah. ouchouch, the jumping starts again! hahaha
yeah, it was pretty fun as said by our dearest liwen WHO IS ON MY LAP JUMPING AROUND
pretty pai seh too. i got dao by so many people! i hate ah bengs! waitwait, liwen say cannot hate! so i shall learn from elson - i love the ah bengs in a negative way. hohoho!
yeah, girls are nicer than guys. but i got dao by ah lians too! thus the conclusion of bengs and lians being annoying. rahh. hahaha
yayness, GO IJ! met dewi,tyanne and pat just now. nice IJ girls unlike pl helped us out! :D
they did many surveys for us so that we could knock off early! yay! :D
(1 worst thing is that they did the survey but couldnt come at all..muahahahahaha -liwen)
hey! they got training k.. all the best all you IJ trackers! love ya! :D
(but their training is in the morning lor)
(people will tired one lor! hahaha)
anyway, did a few more surveys and we're off to sandy's house to play
hohoho, im getting boredddd. nothing to do here lor! bring us here to see her use the comp. -.-

oh yeah! special thanks to all you guys who are showing me so much support by fasting with me
36hours aint easy, iknow that..im having gastric already! hohoho.
ij revival! yeah! i decided to call it the 'street21 revival' a revelation i received at 11plus last night
praise God! :D

yay, liwen went off to look at zopia! hahaha
mum's pissed at me cos i dont sleep to watch soccer. so lame. hohoho
she's been nagging at me since last night

sad, owen's out for the rest of the matches! :(
yay, there's brazil match tonight! 3am
darn, why are all nice matches at 3
im gonna sneak out to watch in the living room. hohoho
mum, your nagging's not gonna stop this football fever! hohohoho

hello mr sneezy boy
thanks for your encouragement
jiayou at your side too k! :D

im here for a reason

went for prayer meeting last night
i couldnt understand what was up with me
the distraction throughout the meeting..
and amazingly i dont know how i fell into a nervous wreck when i had to pray with leila
havent i done that so many times that i should have got used to it
i felt like i had just joined the church and it was my first time
i felt the Man behind me had left, He seems to disappointed to want to continue to back me up
when i told about my promotion it no longer seemed that exciting to me
being a leader by next year doesnt seem to be working to keep me moving anymore
there were other stuff on my mind

i was reading through my drafts the other day
and i saw the change from the older posts to the recent ones
the older posts were all talking about my spiritual life, and i did a little preaching of my own based on my own revelations that i never got the time to complete
but as i read on to the newer posts the Man behind my back was no longer there
it was all about friendship problems, relationship problems and well myself being a little childish ranting about how so-and-so offended me
it was no wonder the Man had left - i would have too

i have missed out so much that i cant afford to miss anymore
my studies have been neglected, my friends are drawing away, my problems never seem to find the way out
i dont wanna be the top5 counting from the back in my class anymore
i wanna be the top counting from the front. i have the potential and im gonna unleash it
im not gonna give the others anymore chances to overtake me. i am the top scorer for psle and i will be the top scorer for any other tests
im gonna fight to get my friends back. i have done it before and im gonna do it again
im gonna be a problems solver, im gonna sort everything out and get things crystal clear
i am more than a conqueror

there are just so many things going on now
so many people are having problems of their own
im sorry my dear pals that i havent been around
selfish me was too caught up in my own world
im open to hear you guys up now! you know my number! :D

it's really sad to see friendships end because of some misunderstandings
elson ong! arent you glad we made it through! :D
jeannie, ansel! we made it through too! whee~

it's sad to say goodbye..

我还是会想他，想听他笑我傻
虽然此刻心里充满挣扎

call me dumb but im really having this silly thought of leaving my msn on everynight to let mrsneezyboy to chide me every night like he used to. at least there is still some form of communication this way.. at least i know that he would still care enough to try to talk some sense into me, at least i know that he is still around.. sigh, im really dumb. ha.

我承认我还没忘了他

stayed over at sarah's place on thurday's night to watch soccer
can you believe it, evanpay..soccer?? im amazed myself. hohoho
it was pretty cool. caught less than an hour's sleep but hey, it's better than jicai eh
that poor fellow couldnt sleep at all cos of the horrible cup of coffee SARAH LEE made for him.
the two packs of caffine should did keep him up all night. hohoho
i love thursday night. i finally got everything out! :D
praise God for turning a stumbling block into a stepping stone!
i should thank him for telling her about it eh. then she could tell her who came to kajiao me about it then opened me up! hohoho, a little confusing but yay! i love you jiayu!! hahaha. :D
oh and praise God for jicai too. hohoho. i sorta vented my anger on him and he almost died..hahaha, sorry dude. i appreciated it! (now iknow who i can turn to when im mad, hohoho)
go england go! i love beckham! :D and lampard looks like pastor yong!! hohoho

the david generation prayer meeting on saturday was pretty cool too
yes, im gonna rise up to be a leader next year! i am gonna fulfil what was spoken to me
to rise up in usher ministry and cell group ministry and woohoo~ rev dr. evangeline pay!
liyun led for praise during combined cell! it was cool! hohoho
the message was good too, about fellowship and stuff.
im sorry but im not gonna let go of this hatred that soon. give me some time k.. :D
everyone loved monkey! yay! he's the emerge monkey! (he's got my wristband. hohoho)

service today was cool.. cool in two ways - awesome and cold!
it reminded me of how i wore 3t-shirts last week. hohoho
there was a repeat of spelling bee today! go you li ming and brandon chew!
ehh, brandon looked super cool today..especially for the speed round. hohoho
drama was pretty cool too, funny!
happy fathers' day dad! :D
jicai was disgusting! he shoved the tube of mentos into his shirt then gave it to jessamine and i.
yay, we had fun drawing too. hohoho
i love sarah lee's mum! she's finally gonna bake cheesecake for me!! :D
i shall go her house to watch soccer on wed then i can gobble up the nice curry chicken she's gonna cook! yay!
fellowshipped around before leaving for ikea with jo
im pleased with myself today! im sure chuanyu thinks the same way too! hohoho.
shopping at ikea was pretty tiring
bought my bed frame, table and wardrobe today. yay
it was pretty funny moving the stuff back
the van couldnt fit everything in so we had to call the lorries to come. hohoho

im beat! waiting to go for some wedding dinner later
rahh, im lazy to go get changed.

rise up church to the holy call

sound the drums with a heaven's beat
hear the sos from the devil's keep
time is ticking and the world is dying
rise up church for a holy call,
RISE UP CHURCH FOR A HOLY CALL!

i aint in a good mood these days
dont mess around with me
my sister and my dog just had it from me for provoking me
im sorry cookie, i didnt mean to be so fierce to you..
you know how much i love you. (:

i gotta get a hang of my emotions before i really go shooting off too much and lose all my friends
i've already lost one and im not prepared to lose a few more. dang!
im surprised i dont exactly get mad at my school pals. aint you guys just glad about it. hohoho
well, i guess that aint exactly a good news from fiona,liyun and sandy eh..

there was prayer meeting at jiayu's house today
despite waking up late i was still the first to reach besides jiayu
hohoho, just realized how close we stay.
dont you just hate taking the bus in the morning when you hafta squeeze with all the adults rushing to get to work or rushing home from the market
rahh, cramp! :(

we had loads of fun before prayer meeting started
just me,jiayu,sekhong and sarah. :D
piaoxue, shalala, lemon tree and i can show you the world

prayer meeting wasnt as good as i expected to get
i caught nothing, thought i could get everything out today but well, they're stuck with me i guess
loads of interuptions and it aint easy screaming out any odd chinese song that pop up when the 'security' came knocking

the study session didnt go as well too
who would study in this kinda environment
i swear i would never attend another group study ever again
exchanged work with jiayu to do and she complained about my work being harder than hers
wow jiayu! you gotta change your teacher before you take your o's girl! or that's the end of it.
special thanks to brandon chew who was nice enough to check up all the definations for me! :D

got pretty pissed after awhile and so i left
met zining at the busstop and we chatted a lot
never exactly had a chat with her before. hohoho, i love you k.. :D

i guess im ready to move into the new place pretty soon
just hafta shove all the clothes in and whee! new house! :D
somehow i wasnt that scared of heights when i climbed the ladder to paint the wall today
i was pretty shocked myself for my bravery. there's seriously something wrong with me! i can feel it!
think evan think, you gotta get it out quick!

take all of me i give You my all for all of You

dead beat! all the packing and the painting in preparation of the new place is tiring me out!
woke up around 1030 today after the whole night of packing of clothes
snacked and slacked around before i left for marina square with mich to shop
i didnt wanna go but hey, i love my sister too much to leave her alone. hohoho
it was pretty cool shopping and fooling around. bought loads of stuff! :D
oh and we bought this really pretty bag for only 12bucks!! i was so proud of myself for making my sister buy it! hohoho.
and it was pretty amusing seeing how i went ga-ga over all the green+yellow stuff
go brazil! eh, actually i support england, but hey! i love the colors! haha.
heck, im not a huge fan of football anyway. hohoho
i found a really nice Nike Twentytwenty Fustal bag!! ho junle! im waiting for my green bag!
you can get me that! it's only 57bucks! get it from queenstown! :D
oh yeah, the converse bags are pretty cool too. get the brazil colors! I LOVE GREEN AND YELLOW!!
im a big fatfat! i ate loads of stuff today
first the berry frenzy, then the cheese fries from billy bombers, then the vanilla orea from polar.
i gotta start losing weight!
oh and i think i've got a huge butt!! :(
im sadden! im fat!! argh!!
anyways, we went to ikea to get michelle's shelf and the cashier..*** jun is really cute!
mich and i decided to visit ikea more often to see him. hohoho, joking!
im home and michelle pay's still whining about that skirt from zara and that shorts from mango that i refused to let her buy. rahh
aint buying the 12buck bag more worth it! hahahaha

jicai is making me lie!! :(
he keeps telling me about how handsome he is
'im the handsomest guy you've ever seen'
and smart me just told him i need to see more guys!

tomorrow's the big day! ((:

whee~ today's been great!
i woke up late! but hey, praise God for turning my stumbling block into a stepping stone!
daddy drove me to church and i was there pretty much on time, 0920? hahaa
service today was pretty much alright
i didnt exactly catch much, was pretty distracted during the entire service and man! was i freezing! i wore 3t-shirts during service! hohoho
i realized that i really cannot stand people who cant sing and yet they love to show it off
but hey, praise God they love Him so much so i wont say much. hohoho

xplosive race was pretty cool
station masters left earlier to prepare..
sandy and i bought loads of donuts before we got onto the train.
3bucks worth of donuts k!! hoho, i refused to treat chuanyu. :P
reached bedok and went to the macs there to get food before we left for east coast
met sarah, zining and gang there and fooled around for awhile before we left
sean tay was nagging at us all the while. rahh.
met up with pauline and vicky before we left together to meet up with leila and te rest at east coast.
rahh. we were having fun suanning people in the bus. hohoho
yeah, anyway the trip to east coast was pretty cool. :D
i was worn out when i reached east coast. stupid iguana in the underpass! rahh
ate my food and went to change
sandy and vicky tried to kill me with all the face crayon! then they got chased away and sarah teo took over!
drew all over my face and arms. man! i looked freaky! (i didnt even have to look at myself to know that i looked freaky. hahaha)
everyone got a shock when they saw me. and sean tay said i looked like a giant lizard!! :( hahaha
left hurridly with anna, sean, jiayu, jicai brandon and elliot when the crowd came in
we couldnt let them see us. rahh
yeah anyway anna got wet cos i took her umbrella! :D
she wanted to protect my make up k..i wasnt being mean! haha
the games went on despite the rain, blahblahblah, anna looked like a turtle!! haha. x)
oh and alex wore a nice ktv waitress's top and skirt! you looked sexy dude! mystique! haha.

bbq was pretty cool, joshua started the fire really quickly with the help of HAOPEI! hahaah
and yay, i finally got to ride a bike for the first time in my life! it's quite fun actually. haha
and my first was dedicated to leong weide! (eh, dont think beyond the bike thing. haha)
he was a big show off. performing his stupid tricks, riding super fast and jerking the bike every now and then leaving me behind screaming my head off. haahha.
then jicai took over. yay, at least he's nice enough to slow down when i told him i didnt know how to ride a bike. :D
then my third to SOON LIYUN WHO CRASHED TWICE! hahaha
the first time when i was on the phone with junle and the second when she crashed into this girl who was resting at the longkang. hahaha
yay, it was fun being ferried around on the bikes, give the guys a phone call and they rush over to fetch you. hahaha
oh yeah, brandon's weird too - he raced with jicai and me on the way back to the pit from 7-11
we biked and he ran. hohoho. and he came running up to me screaming 'i beat you! in your face!' when we reached. haha. okayy..
sarah gave us a lift back to bishan when dad called to scream at us. rahh
her mum's really cool! hahaa. you rock auntie! cheesecake!! hahaha.

went home, got a little scolding and went to help paint michelle's room
man was i exhausted. bathed at around 12 plus and went online. and off to bed!

somehow i dont seem to wanna give a damn to anyone's problems
i have problems of my own and im sorry im not gonna budge into yours
nope, im not gonna say anything nor am i gonna care much
there's just somethings that i am just not the right person to care eh.

call me untrustworthy
i cant change anything unless you are willing to
everyone makes mistakes you know
if you're unwilling to let go,
im sorry for being so willing to let go of this friendship
man, why am i caring so much when you dont even
check your attitude.

whee~ i love fridays
cos it would mean the next day would be saturday, CELLGROUP! :D
somehow im really excited about cellgroup tomorrow
maybe because it's combined cell or well, maybe because of the movie screening

anyways im dead beat
spent my entire evening painting my New Room!
im moving in next wednesday!! :D
the room's Green in color!
hohoho, no furnitures yet and everything's not confirmed
but there's gonna be house warming next wednesday when we bless the house
hopefully we dont burn the house down with that pot of fire. hahaha. x)
im pretty excited about getting my own room!
more room, more privacy, and it also means that i can finally do my quiet time on a regular basis with no one disturbing me every now and then! :D
oh and yay, i can finally talk on the phone late into the night - you guys hafta call in that is, i dont have free outgoing and im not getting my own phone in the room! hohoho.
whee~ earth calling to evanpay! hahaha

i hafta go back to paint again at 1930! :(
it's really pretty fun but Tiring!
but the sense of fulfilment is indeed awesome! :D

im listening to brother kc's songs!
nicenicenice!
im still gonna sing it out loud despite my horrible voice! hohoho
get ready to crack windows!! :D

i had a revelation from psalm 46:7-11 yesterday!
praise the Lord! it really did pull my spirits up! :D
will share about it tomorrow!! be sure to listen up! hohoho

alright, i shall continue slacking for a little more before i went back to painting!!

it was all shortlived..

ever tried crying 6times in a day
i just did on sunday
the feeling aint good
having to witness what you dread to witness
having to be reminded of all the stuff you dread to be reminded
having to face all the stress, problems, disappointments and heartaches at one time
i finally broke down.

i take back what i said about giving me a break God, i dont want a break
satan, if you think im just gonna back off like that, just cos of a little setback
you're wrong. cos im stronger than what you think i am
because He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world
we'll see who flees first

satan, i declare war with you!
wanna battle, you're on!

Hello God. thanks for sending the little angels to help me. to pick me up when i fell, to help me find back myself. thank you God for reigniting my torch, to be the light in my darkness, to be the shade when my light flickers, to cover me so that my sins would not be seen, to straighten out my acacia wood, to be my Lord and my Saviour, and most importantly my Love.

i can see it. little angels mending up my amour, sharpening my two edged sword, preparing me to stand up once again, stronger, to fight.

i am the salt of the earth and the light of the earth; no weapon formed against me shall prosper!

satan, let's battle!