yes, these two days have been absolutely fantastic!
and i am definitely back! no longer that silly girl who shuns from all church members cos of that stupid backsliding thought
and thanks all, im really feeling very much better. :D
God has been so true to me these two days
and really, if you dont give up and just hang in there for a little while more, things are gonna be alllrighttt! :D

there's been loads of crying for me these two days
it's just the Holy Spirit touching me, dont worry.. im not mad
yes, i cried the hell outta me when leila prayed for me and when michelle spoke to me
then i went to do quiet time and the crying continues. haha
i made a covenant with God last night.. no matter what happens, i will never leave Him and He will never leave me

today's service was great.. no, it was AWESOME
pastor mike connell is simply amazing.. working through the power of the awesome God!
ministry service was super cool. yeah, i still cant get over it.. haha
all the screaming and crying.. yep, i got everything out! praise God!
im feeling a total relief now, things are just so peaceful for me now..
i guess all i needed was just really, to forgive..

yep, im slacking at home
and im physically exhausted
eat bathe sleep listen to hillsongs!

well, special thanks to gerald,liyun,leila,fiona,sandy,nicolette,michelle,jo and i forgot who i missed out
for yes, sticking around and going through this tough time with me
thankss! i love you guys! :D

time to sleep!

you are the God who will save..

vanessa heng made me do this AGAIN

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.
After that tag at least 5 people to do this

1.lingyu
2.penny
3.VANESSA HENG
4.123456
5.789101112
6.jeannie
7.paul twohill's wife
8.geok
9.sandy
10.elson
11.fiona

How did you meet 10? church

What would you do if you never met 2? nothing. haha

What would you do if 9 and 11 dated? it's kinda expected so well..

Do You like 7? mummy! hahaha.

Would 5 and 6 make a good couple? sure. brokeback mountain

Describe 3. IRRITATING.Nice at times.EGOISTIC. SELF OBSESSED

Do you think 8 is attractive? okay la. haha

Tell me something about 2. math is her fav subject

Do you know any of 4's family? no

Whats 5's favourite things? ballet

What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you. nothing, i mean it's kinda expected but im sorry i hafta reject you vanessa heng! haha

What language does 6 speak? english

Who is 9 going out with? brandon chew. hahaha, no la! no one..

How old is 8 now? 46527486years old.

When was the last time you talked to 1? 98218651567years ago

What is 2's favourite band/singer? luo zhi xiang. right? haha

Would you ever date 7? she wont wanna date me! :(

Would you ever date 11? eww. no way! haha

Have you ever seen 2 naked? NO AND I DON'T WANNA.

People whom you want to pass this
brandon chew, penny ng, geok, VANESSA HENG AGAIN, whatever

dang(x4)
it's 0628! I'm dead beat! But I cant get back to sleep! :(
I'm finally serving for usher later! How fun! :D
actually not really, I mean like I haven't served for 98756458years and I've totally forgotten what to do
I was asking Jo awhile ago while everyone was still asleep
'newcomer's slip stand up with the newcomers right, when do you stand for offering,bulletin,envelope'
haha, yes. I'm a kuku, cos I screwed up big time the last time I ushered. x)
so cool! We're having a recording afterwards for parade of ministry!
hahaha, yes. The pirated version of parade of schools (POS)
but anyhow.. I was pretty excited when jasmine messaged 'hi, please wear nicer tmr, we're having recording after service for parade of ministry, so wear as cool as possible!'
(argh, someone must be missing me like crazy, I'm sneezing like crazy. boohoo. ): )

yesterday was pretty fun too
went to toa payoh early in the morning to sell keychains for the disabled children
so malu! I was the only one not in youth mission. But praise God for Nicole, a new friend I just made
she took care of me all the way and wow! We were the fastest team ever to finish selling 20keychains in less than an hour! :D
Anna was lost for words when we ran up to her to return the stuff
yep, we rock. No, she rocked. hahaha
oh yes, there was this guy.. He was so cute! (in his actions) he looked a little like Gerald! x)
we made him buy and he only had a 10 or 50 dollar note on him
so we were like 'think about how much your 10dollars can help the children, blahblahblah'
then he was like 'yes, I would like to help but 10dollars!'
so we kept making him buy 5keychains and smart me finally spoke up and 'why don't you go to the delifrance infront and get change!'
and Nicole was like 'eeee, if he leaves he wont come back!'
but the nice guy promised us that he wont lie and he went to get change
5mins later, he came running back to buy a keychain from us! :D
then for some reason he kept coming back and walking pass us
Nicole was like 'must he you lar! In love with you already..' *blushes! hahahahha. siao!
anyway, there was this father. He was awesome!
he bought one for his 19month old son, then he made some donations
15mins later he came back to return the keychain cos he wanted to help us raise more funds for the children. How nice! :D

rushed off for cellgroup after that
cabbed down cos I thought that cell starts at 2, when in fact it started only an hour later
wasted my money! urgh
praise God, I loved the message. :D
yes, I'm having second thoughts about my plan
I don't wanna give up without putting up a good fight
but I don't wanna put up a good fight and lose
but then again what if my breakthrough is just a step away
and then again, what if my breakthrough is a thousand gazellon miles away

have you ever met someone who plans how to backslide
if you haven't, come look for me
I mean like seriously, I've been feeling really bad these days
so sometimes on my way home or when I've got nothing to do I'll just sit down and plan how I was gonna backslide
first, take a 2month break with an excuse to study then slowly draw away from everyone else and I'm gone! hahaha

lonely travel..

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.
After that tag at least 5 people to do this

1. leila
2. sarah
3. anna
4. liyun
5. sandy
6. brandon
7. gerald
8. vanny
9. fiona
10. jeannie
11. penny

1. How did you meet 10?
school

2. What would you do if you never met 2?
no more cheesecake!! :(

3. What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?
bring them both for sy rogers!

4. Do you like 7?
hahaha, he's a nice guy.. :D

5. would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
you'd never know, HAHA

6. Describe 3.
awesome! incredible! wow! hahaha

7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
yeah, she is attractive in her own ways..

8. Tell me something about 2.
she has a mum who bakes awesome cheesecake! :D

9. Do you know any of 4's family?
her sister?

10. Whats 5's favourite things?
guys

11. What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you.
err, it wouldn't happen. hahaha

12. What language does 6 speak?
alien language. hahaha. nah, english and chinese I GUESS

13. Who is 9 going out with?
no one

14. How old is 8 now?
fourteen

15. When was the last time you talked to 1?
probably two weeks ago?

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
i've got no idea!

17. Would you ever date 7?
hahaha. you never know! no la, too smart for me. :P

18. Would you ever date 11?
hahaha. no way! im straight now can! (get me crystal fong! x))

19. Have you ever seen 2 naked?
no, i wouldn't want to.

people whom you want to pass this on;sandy,jeannie,vanny,liyun,penny

I just realized how cursed the second semester is
first I've become super prone to injuries!
my once injury free body is now filled with scars, bruises, cuts and skin dangling around!

just today I've added two more cuts to my body
the first when I accidentally squished my arm inbetween the comp lab table and chair which torn my delicate skin
and the second when I was playing with my collar (as usual) and accidentally clipped my chest to it
yep, torn skin and a tiny cut. ouch

I'm just glad I've got a plaster dispenser as my best pal! :D
always having a huge stack of plasters with diff designs in her wallet
which I can freely take and stick it on myself (for a good reason! I'm not so boliao to stick plasters on myself when I'm injury free!)

I shall start collecting plasters one day and compete with Vanessa heng!
that shall be my short term goal for now ansel! hohoho
I know I know.. You must sitting in front of your comp cursing at me..
'stupid evanpay! So bo liao! Ask you study you don't want, wanna go compete with plasters for what!' hahaha

speaking of competing, penny and I were competing who was richer today!
we were digging out all our notes and coins and forcing people to return us our money
dangdangdangdang, victory was mine! After I announced how much I had in my bank
not gonna reveal it here lest your start plotting as to how your are gonna kidnap me. hohoho
I'm not rich! Penny's just poorer that's all! x)

yay, I'm totally in love with high school muscial and zac efron right now! :D
my dreams shattered A LITTLE BIT when Gerald told me zac didn't sing all the songs himself
it was an over by someone else! boohoo. :'(
it's okay! He's still cute! And they cant over that with someone else can they. hohoho

and yes, praise God jiayu's alright now!
got discharged a few days ago and is currently recuperating at home!
just don't make her laugh! We don't wanna send her back to lie for a few more days!
I love that kuku head! hahaha

dont worry about me you guys!
im coping well with the emotionally unstable thing
haha, still an ultimate moodswinger but hey! im trying my best to change already alright!
give me time.. dont be so demanding! haha

and i feel fat!
i was staring at myself in the mirror when i was in the shower today
i looked awfully fat!
im gonna eat only a meal a day for the next one month!
dont ask me out for food anymore!

im putting in a new commandment to evanpay's 11commandments!
thy shall not gossip!

let's hope i can get that right!

missing You like crazy

people change to circumstances

im short and fat! :'(
and im sad! leila's gone for weeks!
come back soon with loads of gifts for me!
sarah,zining and i will take good care with n330! :D

we took height and weight today
i swear there's something wrong with the measurement!
the whole class shrunk! and nope! not telling anyone my height and weight! urgh!!
yar, im short and fat now!
oh and for some reason i'm having bruises all over my body!
2huge one that merged as one on my left arm and one each on my left and right leg
(stop playing with those curse dolls you dummies! hohoho)

oh yes, regarding the brandon chew picture in my previous post,
if you think im mean, i think im being pretty nice already
since he wants to play, i'll play along. humpf!
that's for taking my kindness for granted!

as usual today was pretty slack
penny's ill! dont come to school tomorrow!
then you can skip school for like 5days! :D
im ill too! i've been having headache for the entire day!
lack of sleep cos someone decided to play a prank on a sick girl and deprive her of her rest! urgh! im disgusted.
math was pretty funny, me and my silly mistakes that made mrs wong scream at me when i cross multiplied an addition equation. hohoho
i took forever to finish a sum! x)
art was two periods of taking pictures in the comp lab while van messed around with adobe and michelle's usual routine of stupidity. oops! =x
oh and tiara was looking at porn with geok! hahahaha.
i was just sitting around, snapping random pictures with vanny while she waits for her stuff to load and screaming for miss ho to tell her that tiara's watching porn! hahaha

for some reason lao shi just disappeared into thin air and hcl was cancelled. hohoho
so i went to pizza hut to feast with jeannie and ansel!
i was supposed to go suki with vanny! nevermind, we can go billybombers/suki tomorrow! :D
darn, im growing fat! and im fat already! :(
dont remind me..

jeannie and ansel are cheapos who sneakily went for the second serving of soup!
sigh.. i was sitting down there munching on my hut's platter and watching them at the same time
embarrassing la! hahahaha. thank goodness they didnt get caught or anything. hohoho

jeannie has a boyfriend
jeannie has a boyfriend
he's from sji
singapore's jerkiest institution!

jeannie! traitor! we were supposed to go for acsi!
why did you exchange for something less!
im disappointed jeannie, utterly disappointed.
nope! not gonna go sji with you on monday! hahahah
i got some math competition training la! x)

darn, im tempted to eat the cookies sitting beside me
nooo! lose weight!!
speaking of which, geok has to lose 1kg within 2weeks!
hohoho, sadsad.. just cut down on carbo geok!
no rice for 2weeks wont kill! just drink more water! :D

oh and i cant believe brazil lost!
although it's like yesterday's news, but hey!
now there's nothing to watch! :(
and england so shouldnt have lost can!
micheal owen broke his knee, beckham hurt his ankle and was dehydrating, and rooney got a red card because of darn ronaldo! urgh!!
annoying!!! :(

i give up on blogging
it's freaking hot no and i cant on the air-con! :(
bye!!

ps to melody! : happy belated birthday darling! i'll give you a cookie on sunday! :)

stone this freak of nature!
JERK!

Praise God for everything!
alright, before I start with anything, a few people to thank! :D
Leila, although I haven't been willing to tell you anything but thanks for sticking around!
Anna, thanks for hitting me on the back to ask how I was today!
fiona, for the long lesbian hug and almost kiss you gave today!
Gerald, for hearing me out and sorry for the disturbance at 3am!
JIAYU! Thanks so much for all the encouragements you've given, for always being there for me to share my problems, for lending me a shoulder to cry on, for praying for me, for pulling me back. Yes, we're both anointed! :D
and of cos, my heavenly father.. For never letting me go despite the many times I've failed Him, for never forsaking me, for always loving me, I know im your precious little girl! I have a vision, a hope, a future in You!

service today was awesome!
and I really do mean it!
the message was great, the atmosphere was great, the people were great! :D
praise God, I've finally let go of what I've been held back from
I cried all the heartache, all the bitterness I've bottled up in me for so long
thank You Jesus, for restoring my vision, my future
hello world, IM BACK! Watch out satan!
nope, im not some foolish 14year old who's gonna trade her future for something FAR LESS than what she's worth!
the only trading im gonna do is the one with Jesus!
im having breakfast with Jesus right now! (heh, dinner la..The food's yummy! :D)
to you, I forgive you for all the hurts you've caused in my life. Will you do the same for me?

yumyum! im such a fatfat!
I've been eating so much recently!
darn emotions, I binge when im sad! :(
now it's time for some weight losing! hohoho

the posts really short cos im feeling pretty guilty right now
gonna go do some sit-ups! hahaha.


"i dont mean to say that i have already achieved these things or that i have already reached perfection! but i keep working toward that day when i will finally be all that Christ Jesus saved me for and wants to be" -philipians 3:12