today was kinda sad.. i dont know why vanessa heng and penny didnt feel anything about the last day the teachers are ever gonna teach you!
one teacher i'm seriously gonna miss.. MRS WONG!
if you're reading this, i really wanna thank you la..
although i'm super pai in your class and never do your homework
you've never given up on me and you've always been there to give me extra help
it's kinda scary for you to look up my primary school grades, so dont do it ever again! hahaha..
but ya, i really wanna thank you, and i'm running this last race for not only me but you also
watch me get my first a1 for you! :D
and XIE LAO SHI.. thanks so much for thinking that i'm super guai cos michelle was..
and sorry for always handing up my homework late, although you never ever realize until i own up
but ya, thanks! oh ya for helping me suck up to my mum also! :D

anyway, for the other teachers i didnt feel so much for
i still love you although your love to scold me..

today! super slack! and super funny
okay, at least for me cos i was super high for the whole day
in the morning mrs matthews finished her persistence story and haha! i was trying to control my laughter throughout the morning prayer!
cos it was so dumb! dont know what the elephant hatched the egg and out came an elephant-chicken! hahahah!
my first reaction was 'van! the chicken had sex with the elephant! hahaha!' and my second was 'eh! dumbo!' and van was like 'stupid la you, dumbo is ears.. not chicken!' hahaha.. okay, not that funny but i was seriously laughing my head off

oh and during recess penny passed me some stuff she made to help her study formulaes la
then i went round spreading along with vanessa 'horrr! penny trying to cheat for exams!'
and i went on with my crap to penny 'penny.. you cannot cheat, you know the bible says thy shall not lie.. cheating is a form of lie, a sin! cannot like that.. blahblahblahblah'
and she was darn mean to me! i forgot what she said and i dont wanna remember! rahhh
oh and vanessa heng like thief that like la! everyone lose things confirm with her
she took my lit worksheet, pen and marker! and penny's cheating notes, science tb, and jeannie's i dont know what, and louann's chinese book!
next time you lose something, go search vanessa. haha!
(eh, i still got a missing blue pen! hahaha..)

chinese was super fun..
we had some stupid competition thing with only me,denise,tiara and pris against 2other groups with loads of people! hahaha
we kept rotating and lao shi was like 'eh! wei shen me you shi ni!'
anyway it was super loser.. only tiara and priscilla studied!
so the rest of us went up to cheat
(oops! i just preached about cheating to penny! die i must go repent! hahah..)
i kept erasing nerine's stuff whenever she got it right. haha!
then it was super comical looking at priscilla they all for help.. cos they kept showing the 'bi hua' to writing the words
then you hafta figure it out and write it down.. and lao shi kept telling me 'bu shuan! ling fen!' rahh.. hahaha

anyway the fun didnt last long la
we had to go back to arrange tables for exams next week
then van was trying to complain to me about dont know what irritating and stuff
when all of a sudden everyone was like 'SI LI!' and i got shock so i rose up my both hands like surrender like that and everyone started laughing at me! i was like 'huh?! what what!' when lao shi dragged me off.. literally..
ya, anyway went off to the staffroom with cheryl and laoshi to collect the model essay books
and i was super scared can! the only few places i'm darn scared is #1 staffroom, #2 general office #3 wherever teachers go.. cos i scared they catch me for my attire! hahaha.. x)
you can ask cheryl! i kept tugging at my belt and looking out for teachers
then when we left level 2 staffroom we still had level 3 to pass.. so i stuck my head out from the staircase and i went 'the coast is clear! run!! *chiong like siao with a pile of books in my hand' haha!

anyway i continued with my zi high state in the bus with ansel
with the dont know what spasm thingy and chicken! hahahaha..
okay, i was getting a lil weird i must admit.. but it was funny! rahh

argh, okay..
i've got 2days to finish studying for end of years
gotta stop here!
byee!

life's never gonna be the same again

okay, i've got a minute left to slack if the tuition teacher doesnt turn up.
rejoice everyone! i know how to work a radio!
would you believe me if i told you i've never used a radio in my entire life
alright, maybe the ones in the car.. haha
i spent 5mins of my life standing infront of the radio junle left at my house last saturday, today
pressing around fiddling here and there trying to make it work
and all of a sudden out of nowhere, BOOM! it miraculously switched on!
you could imagine how excited i was! running out to get my phone and onto msn to spread the good news to everyone!
now everyone thinks i'm weird.. haha,
but i'm freaking smart! :D

okay, times up!
bye!

Instructions:
1.Mention the gender of your perfect partner
2.Come up with eight different points of your perfect partner.
3.Tag eight other victims to join this game
4.Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

1. FEmale
oops.. did i just say that out loud? sorry! MALE
i'm not a lesbian! argh! hahaha..

#1: God-fearing
#2: smarter than me - not easy to find k! i dont care! rah! hahaha..
#3: rich
#4: good-looking; charming
#5: annoying - i'm serious! get me an annoying husband! life's gonna be more colorful like that. haha
#6: musically inclined - not necessary but it'll be at an advantage
#7: humorous - i need someone to consistently cheer me up; i'm emotionally unstable
#8: must love me to bits - aww.. romantic enough? (:

3. NOT TAGGING! just do it if you want. haha..

somehow there seems to be a struggle for me to love again
and to once again sink back into Your amazing love

was struggling to get into the presence of God today
it's not cos He's not there, but it's just that i didnt want to break into it
i was talking to cheukk over certain areas of my life which i couldnt find an answer to yesterday
and it was today that i've found my answer,
that i cant exactly bring myself to love anymore
or maybe it's cos i'm afraid to love

because i know to love and to be loved,
i need to have something to give
and right now, i really have nothing to give in return

Lord, i miss loving You
but i just cant bring myself to..

i want to sing
until i am lost in your love..

this is for all conk-heads out there
ij is with sji lar.. not acs..

sji is our brother school
acs is mgs's brother school
get it?

dumbheads!

'Is SPH going to call all the ACS boys along to testify that it's fair comment or, hell, the truth?'
'not acs la.. sji'

In collaboration with the straits times the encyclopedia
we are holding a 'get loose and have sex with your bf' campaign for all ij girls
since we are all so fun and easy, might as well have it!

c'mon down to the sph and get a free bed and condoms for doing it!
also, if you are still a student.. you get 6cip hours for doing it thrice!
being paid for getting enjoyment, what a bargain!

also, other than the boring condom flavors like strawberry,orange, blahblahblah
the 'evan and xiang condom private limited' has come up with new flavors -
curry, thai tom yam, durian, rambutan, and many more!
and our very own ceo, MRS SHAWN has tried them and here's what she said
'these condoms works wonders! it enchances the excitement in having sex!'
ps: evan and xiang condoms private limited is not liable to hold any responsibility if the condoms causes side effects.

so what you waiting for! hurry down to the sph NOW!
for more information, feel free to contact me so that i can laugh my head off at you!

closing date: 230906 (sat), 11.59pm

ps: if you're stupid enough to believe me, go ahead.. haha!

Before you continue with this post, go read: http://www.todayonline.com/articles/143587.asp

and here, i've complied several blog posts of patriotic ij-ians.. :D

I found this article in the Sunday Times about IJ Girls rather insulting
IJ GIRLS
IJ is short for CHIJ, or Convent of the Holy Infant Jesus,a school founded in Victoria Street by Catholic nuns and priests.There are now 13 secondary and primary schools in the family.
“IJ Girls” is a generalization for girls who study in CHIJ schoolsand who like to hem their school uniforms real short,wear their belts real low on their hips,and are allegedly easy when it comes to the opposite sex.
but bad rep aside, they are also known for being smart,creative and well-spoken, at least going by how alumniinclude actresses Andrea De Cruz and Sharon Au, singer Tanya Chua,model Charmaine Harn, and Campus Superstar finalist Teresa Tseng.
written by: sandra leog, hong xinyi, stephanie yap & jill alponsoLifestyle

This article is highly inaccurate and I am utterly disgusted by the fact that it was co-written by a fellow IJ-ian.
It is true that SOME (not all) girls do alter their uniform, and wear their belts low.
However, what does this article mean when they refer to us Ijians as girls who are “allegedly easy when it comes to the opposite sex”?
Perhaps the authors of the articles have indeed experienced girls that exhibit such reprehensible behavior first, but i feel that they shouldn’t judge every single pupil whois part of the ij community according to that.
If the article is trying to imply that IJ girls are “loose” and easy to get with, I’m sorry, you are clearly mistaken.
Darling, did you really think that IJ girls are the only girls whom alter their uniform length?
Or “wear their belts real low on their hips”?
Heck, find me a girls school where 100% of the girls there wear their uniform according to how it should be worn.

Of course someone acted against the article.
chairperson of the CHIJ Board of Management wrote to the Forum.
And i particularly liked this part of the article
The recent coverage of Mrs Elizabeth Choy was very tasteful. your readers may wish to know that Mrs Choy was an “ij Girl”, having schooled from 1929-1933

HAH.
I’ve spoken to a couple of ex-Ij girls and they were also appalled by the article and have written in to the forum,so just expect to see a couple of more letters in the forum about the article.
I love ij.
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The Life! section of Straits Times today features an Alternate Singapore: The Encyclopedia. In it, under the letter I is IJ girl. The image painted by the author puts all IJ girls to shame. I find the article very insulting, having been an IJ girl for 12 years (7 years of primary school, 5 years of secondary school). Wow… it sounds horrible when I break it down like that. Anyway. Why prey only on IJ girls? The only difference between us and other secondary schools is we dress all the same and look like a blue and white cult. I abhor how the writer of the article stereotypes IJ girls then shamelessly attempts to placate any offended parties by making paltry remarks about creativity and quoting some famous people (some of those quoted parties having been through recent scandals). Not to mention plastering the picture of a KC girl as their image for the article.
NOT COOL.
The papers should know that everything they say is likely to be taken as fact. How would this article affect the way IJ girls are seen? Why single out IJ girls? It simply pisses the stuffing out of me that the media is so candid with their words.
BISH THEM SIA!
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It's not fair to tranish all Ij girls with a stroke form the same brush. Ij girls are not cheap. In every schools even the top ones in jin kan po has their rotten apples, it's natural for a school to be disgraced by some girls but How dare they say Ij girls are easy with the opposite sex. By means of what evidence do they have to tarnish and stain our reputation like that. 150 years of magnificent history, a legacy we are all proud of yet with one storke of a brush they cheapen it all. It's disgusting to see our school's name soiled like that.
_________________________
i shall add on!

firstly, the straits times is being very stupid for not only going against the 16000 ij girls in singapore
but they're also going against the ij schools worldwide
secondly, like the first post i've put up.. you cant find schools with 100% guai kias in it..
walk around in rgs, ri, acsi, nanyang..i'm sure you'll find pai kias in there
so why target only at ij
thirdly, are they expecting us to ear "breast supporters" (high belts) and gowns (reallyreally long pinafores) to school
wait, if we wear our belts too high and tight, we might me accused to being easy again! cos we're showing around our nehneh to the whole world!

oh and i especially liked the 'elizabeth choy was an ij-girl'
haha! they called our war heroine loose!

jeannie was saying later father barre angry then he ressurect and go haunt the reporters
haha! woohoo~

anyway.. morale of the story is: get a huge school community and SUE STRAITS TIMES IF THEY DONT GIVE US 1MILLION BUCKS TO KNOCK SMU DOWN TO BUILD OUR NEW SCHOOL! hahahha.. (inside joke)

happy birthday hansheng!
rock on 'zhou jie lun zhou lu!' (jaywalk)
haha!

firstly, a thank you note to you guys who's been flooding my tagboard, msn and phone with all your love messages and words of encouragement
i'm feeling a lot better already.. watch out! evanpay the great shall be back soon! :D

secondly.. let's not let this stop! continue filling and refilling my love tank over and over again! hahaha..

You'll never leave just like that..

A sense of helplessness rushed passed me as I laid in bed and cried to myself as the thunders roared
the many times I reminded myself that I'm only a fourteen year old, I guess those are just excuses
excuses for the many times I've fallen; excuses for things that I do not want to face

sometimes it's really hard to find someone who is really willing to sit down and listen
having to shoulder everything alone is not exactly the most exciting thing to do..
today, as I knelt down to weep before the Lord over certain areas of my life, I realized that there has been so much unforgiveness in my heart that's been pulling me down
I've been so unwilling to forgive, and I've been even more reluctant in telling God that I forgive
it was then when Leila came over and prayed for me
I'm sick and tired of my life.. Of church,cellgroup,ministry,studies,family,friends.. I am sick of playing the good person..
why cant I be the meanie for once and abandon my current lifestyle to be a bitch
Lord.. Let me go, but not too far away, please..

i am no superwoman..
i am just..me.

even the best fall down sometimes
even the strongest will cry..

argh, i'm falling ill..
been sneezing like siao these days, you guys gotta stop missing me so much man
you're making me suffer! hahaha..

omg, i found blood clot on my scalp last night
i freaked out.. i was thinking if i was gonna die soon. hahaha
nope, i'm still alive..REJOICE! hahaha. but it hurts damn badly when i wash my hair la.. rah

today's been a tiring day
the whole class was extremely restless
it kinda pissed mrs wong off a little. haha
and NO LIT TEST TODAY! i totally didnt study can..
i'm so gonna get sent out next week. sigh.. haha
nothing much today actually..
yar la, too tired to look around.

oh yes, jeannie and i damn power
we stayed back for like 3hours with mrs wong to revise algebra
we did 10weeks' work in like less than 3hours can!
i'm feeling so smart now! muahaha..

jasmine's out! vanny's weird fanclub members must be rejoicing like siao now
i wonder how much mrs alex spent on getting jonathan in.. haha!
but hey! at least singaporeans are finally smart enough to get the right people in.. hahaha

man, everyone's been questioning me over loads of scandals these days
quite irritating la.. i'm not gonna open my mouth unless i find it necessary la
so stop pestering me! go dig for yourself if you want!

5steps to know everything - just like evan! :D
1) read blogs.. you can seriously find out A LOT from blogs.. friendster also, but i dont look there la.
2) make loads of 'ba gua' friends.. things will just get to you without you having to lift a finger to dig for scandals
3) dont give a damn to anything.. eventually people will wanna get your attention and feed you with loads of stuff.. hahaha
4) be 'ba gua' yourself and go be annoying and dig real hard
5) be a great friend and a great listener.. an overcomer too.. then people will confide in you and of cos you must help them out also la..

see, until you can master this art..
dont go around giving false info.. it's not nice. hahaha

'O' is for the only one i see..

Alright, nothing much today
except that I shall be extremely broke until someone decides to bless me with a new wallet and contacts
rah, I lead a sadsad life.. hahaha

oh yes! yuexiang finally got me a boyfriend!
he's called wipeson, cos he wipes tables in MacDonald! haha!
but no, after much consideration..3secs, I decided to give him up
sorry xiang! I'm gonna break up with him now! haha!
get me a richer boyfriend can.. I don't wanna wipe tables with him in the future! hahaha
oh yes, and I'm racist too! (wait, actually I'm not..But heck! I want a Chinese/angmo bf! haha)

DON'T VOTE FOR JONATHAN!!
Mrs Alex appealed to us to spend 50++ 60bucks voting for him for the next two nights
haha! Could you believe it.. She was all out to help 'the school that dates ij girls' -the josephians
and some kuku had to shout 'GO HARDY!' out of nowhere.. Super funny
Mrs Alex in reply- 'who shout hardy?! I'm gonna whack your head! Support Jonathan!' hahaha
sian diao..

Chinese was pretty cool
no lessons today cos laoshi had to go help out at the s4 prelims
that gives me 2periods-recess+Chinese to finish my English! Which I only wrote at the last 15mins! muahaha
we were laughing about vanny's 'smelly penny'(stinch penny) and priscilla's hk accent and the commit suicide thing. haha!

English never failed to bring me to tears
wait, don't get me wrong.. Laugh too hard then cry la.. hahaha
first MRS ADRIAN LIM (THE SERIAL KILLER!) tried to hook us up with sji boys but well, the response wasn't that good.. So she changed to RI which failed miserably and woohoo~ we were screaming 'ACSI!' but nope, we didn't respond much to it..Shy la, hahaha
van.. 'ACS BR!' HAHAHAHA!
oh yes, we were supposed to elaborate on the sentence 'mui ee was in love' so I wrote a damn sad paragraph on it..
'her cheeks were tomato-red, she was getting fidgety as her pinafore was starting to be soaked with presperation flowing like a fountain (geok, does that sounds familiar? haha!). Her fake eyelashes were starting to peel (for those who didn't get that, it's cos she perspire too much), she was having butterflies in her stomach, (here's when I got super high..Read on) when all of a sudden she had a stroke! Too much blood got to her head and her heart had beat too quickly, causing blood vessels in her brain to explode. -she died for love'
hahahahha! Imagine! Some cute guy boarding the bus..And you go *gasp! And you die! hahaha
told you it was sad.. Well it was better than vanny's.. It was getting a lil sexual. haha! (I'm getting excited! hahaha! sounds wrong..)

rah, i hafta write another essay for ms ho (the serial killer who changed her name) cos i wrote out of point
and ms ho! it was really a fiction k! i dont cheat habitually! and i didnt cheat for my psle!
sadsad people are still locked up in school for afternoon study.. muahaha
alright, i shall STRETCH a lil before i leave..

told ya my left eye was bigger than the other
go on, laugh! 'laughter is the best medicine.' :D

35,000 cookies..

alrighto! a few things to celebrate..
first, yesterday was my first spiritual birthday! all those who havent wished me yet.. i shall forgive you. :D
second, i can finally see! but for some reason my specs are freaking HUGE. yar la, dont know what the woman was doing.. measuremeasuremeasure and the outcome was disastrous.. i had to take it anyway. :(
ya, so get used to seeing me without specs.. i wont be using it as far as possible.
(everyone should get me a new pair of contacts for my birthday/christmas! left:550,right:475..flash)
third, we didnt screw up badly for english oral today.. i think? although yes, we missed out loads of parts but the overall performance wasnt that bad..
and yes, i know my voice was extremely squeaky.. it was supposed to be like that, and GO ELMO! hahaha
fourth, i can finally eat and brush properly now! got my tooth out this afternoon.. freaking pain! you could practically hear the 'crackcrack' when she twisted and turned to get my tooth out! ouch! yeah, i was bleeding like mad and smart me actually when to eat super spicy prawn mee after plucking my too! hahaha.. it was hurting like mad on the way back

oh yes, everyone should pray for evan cos for some reason her left eyelid is extremely puffy and the eye is basically pain la.. argh, i'm sickly. haha

did i mention how dumb i was just now..
cos i fell asleep watching tv just now and i woke up at 1909
and somehow it didnt occur to me that it's night time and i freaked out!
how could i have missed school! i almost wanted to scream 'jo! wake up! we're freaking late!' when eh? i suddenly turned smart and 'oh yar! it's still 120906' haha!

we're having some christian band from australia with us this week - stinch penny
hmm, i cant really judge their music considering i couldnt hear much of their performance on monday
but hey, quite cool.. they were playing bball with the basketball girls today
and priscilla met ronin in school today too! for those who dont know what happened last year
i was dared to run up to them for their autograph last year.. and i was paid i forgot how much for it!
so i happily skipped up to them and 'hey! you're the famous local band...(i dont know their name!) right!'
and they were like 'yaryar! blahblahblah' and i dropped a paper and a pen on the table and asked them for their autograph.. and some idiots were screaming at the back..'go evan!!'
so one of the members asked 'were you dared to do this?' and i was nodding my head like siao..so paiseh! hahaha
oh and this albino guy was teaching me how to skip lessons to go see them perform. haha!

here's for all n293,n330 members..
dont be too stressed k you guys! you can do it! ask God for strength and help and we shall run for excellence! :D

lalalalalalalala~ elmo's song..

argh, i'm dammit frustrated
why does everyone think that i've got the answer to every single problem there is
fyi, i'm only a fourteen year old kid who hasnt seen enough of the world yet..

THIS IS SOLID PROOF THAT EVANPAY HAS BEEN STUDYING FOR THE PAST WEEK! :D
yes vanessa heng, be shocked.. i mugged! muahaha..


ah, the start of the day..when the table is still neat and tidy, courtesy to my maid, tri. haha


and this, is after a few hours of slacking and breakfast..and MAYBE some mugging
(pardon the tissue filled plate, i was having a slight cold when that picture was taken..haha)


AND THIS! is by the of the day.. books shrewn all over the table and floor, like wise for the paper

repeat this set of pictures for 6-7days and you'll know how hard i mugged..muahaha
oh and doesnt mean i'm always online i never study k.. the comp's just infront of me!
and well, if i dont reply your sms on time, my phone's been acting as a paper weight so i cant hear it vibrate. haha

omg, and i just realized that itunes is always on my computer! no, not advertising..haha
(next time i'll open neopets! hahahaha!)

oh and be blown away by our latest nacho belly cupcakes advertisement, featuring PAUL TWOHILL (mary onemountain..she tore her hair so forget about the pink wig. haha!) and TICKLEBELLY! hahaha!



to strive for excellence..

alright, im still blind and it's gonna stay that way till perhaps monday or tuesday
i gotta admit, today's not the best day
first i cant see and it's kinda paiseh with people coming up to me to say hi and i stare at them for a looooong time trying to figure out who the heck is that before replying or simply dao them
sorry, i wasnt trying to be mean.. i really cant see!
oh and if you think i really saw you when i greeted you ever so warmly.. i couldnt see you too. haha! x)
someone around me had to inform as to who's coming then i'll stand and 'HI XXX!!! :D'
then i'll remember you by your dressing. and if you're suay enough to wear like a white t-shirt or what, nope i wont recognise you the second time cos you dressing's a lil too common, i'll think you're just someone else.. and if i havent seen you before today, dont expect me to recognise you too.. haha
so if you want me to recognise you this sunday, wear something reallyreallyreally outta the box and well, come say hi right up close to me yourself. haha
second i couldnt see a thing that was going on at dance masquerade
managed to watch a lil of the dances but yep, had some difficulty trying to figure who's who
i couldnt depend on the two kuku beside me cos they dont exactly know many people
see, im popluar.. haha. no la, 'i just know everything..'
third dinner wasnt that fantastic, i hd to be extremly careful about where i was going
and the trip home wasnt that fantastic too.. i couldnt recognise my own car enough to get in
and well, after i got in i couldnt close - i couldnt find the handle. haha! yes..laugh..
im just glad i didnt die in serangoon when i was by myself
i was really kinda scared..haha. thought i would die at the escalator
but thank God i know serangoon mrt at the back of my hand so it was alright, i survived
speaking of which, i wonder how i am gonna survive 1-2days of school without specs! haha!
penny,vanny..you gotta help me out, big time. muaha
alright, a few things to praise God about.. i've got a new pair of nice specs and MRS STEPHENS FOUND MY DEBATE SCRIPT! woohoo~ hahaha..
you should have seen me jumping for joy when tiara called to break the news to me just now
nevertheless, a few things to mourn about.. everything's still blur now, school's starting real soon and i lost my ring!
omg, im so sad la.. i was supposed to wear it out today but i forgot about it! and when i came home to look for it, IT WAS GONE! im sooo sorry darl! :(

alright, i shall go back and mourn somemore
nights!

God is bigger than the boogieman!

you dont love someone because they're perfect;
you love them in spite of the fact that they're not.

i dont know what i'm thinking
but heck, i want you back..
i'm missing you like crazy all of a sudden
would you rain it back down for me
i dont want funny looking cottons in the sky watching out for me anymore
i want you back, back into my arms..

love is blind
i am blind..

argh, i broke my specs and i cant see for nuts now!
rah, pardon me for any spelling errors today cos i cant see enough to correct myself!
so if my entry's a little wrong, go figure.
yesyes, go ahead..laugh..

loads to do today! im feeling extremely guilty for slacking off the past 2days
hard core mugging resumes today!

happy birthday jiayu! :D
(omg, i typed 'hapy brithday' at first..haha!)

It's funny that I've been given a second,third and fourth chance
yet, I do not appreciate life as much as most second chancers
I should have been killed by now, if it wasn't for God who saved me from two car crash
and gave me eternal life when I received salvation

yet, today when I was walking down the street
I had a sudden urge to just step off the pavement when I saw a bus approaching
I was thinking, what would life be like, without my presence
how would the family be like, how would people who has never known me be like
why am I facing all these problems I'm facing right now when I am supposed to be dead

no, I'm not thinking of committing suicide anytime soon
yes, I'm a scary person..