maybe there'll come a day when we finally run out of things to say

i will still not let you go

let go

i earned five bucks for downing a spoonful of Tabasco sauce! :D

today's been pretty laid back i guess
woke up half and hour later than usual and had to rush to bathe then pack up for school this morning
urgh yeah, sick. i've been feeling a lil feverish for the entire day
doubt i caught it but never mind, i just needa rest.

geok was extremely sweet to me this morning
she ran all the way to my class to pass me a letter cos she wants to stay in touch with me since i'm such a nice person and all.. haha
well, we're starting our daily letter writing thing soon.. kinda cute, but i'm just afraid that i wont know what to write sooner or later and start writing math equations in there. haha

had our life story presentation this morning. oh man, it was kinda sad.. shant comment on that, but those present should know what happened. sniffles.
math was uh.. pretty odd today
ms yap got the whole class to do her funny exercise in the middle of her lesson cos she felt that we were getting restless
we had to first put our right hand over our left ear, then put your left hand thru the loop and place it over your right ear. then.. hop on your right foot three times
yeah, it was kinda weird.. oh, one more..
put your right had over your head and i dont know what, then jump on your left foot
hmmmhmmm.. what can i say, i've got weird teachers..
oh yes! olga chew was sexually aroused by me today! lol!
for some reason she just stuck her hand out of nowhere and squeezed my thighs
i got a shock of my life! jumped out of my seat and screamed at her before settling down for lesson.
oh and we made a pact. to help her kick her burping habit, (she loves to burp continuously during math) we've decided to every time she burps i'll scratch her. muahaha, i'm enjoying this

chinese was the usual slack period for elizabeth(evan) and i
for some reason we just kept laughing at nothing throughout the period
oh and we started on some 'yong yuan de hu die' thing which was supposed to be really sad and all, but somehow we made it super retarded

scenario#1 - the girl knew the guy was gonna propose to her and she took the chance to commit suicide
scenario#2 - the guy's mother knew what content of the letter was and so knocked the girl down
scenario#3 - the girl got knocked down and turned into a butterfly??

and loads more which i cant really recall but yeah, we were doing our usual retarded stuff. haha
went for ss after that, we got some uh, not so smart teacher to relief ms koh for the next six weeks
rahhhhh.. she's kinda uh, dumb actually. oh and she thought i was jeannie, elizabeth was me and jeannie was elizabeth! so yeah, we just played along and made each other look super stupid. hmmmhmmm

lit was not too enjoyable. i was trying my best not to conk out half the time
well, i got a lil more energetic after school and went to j8 with elizabeth,jeannie and anselina
oh man! this sucks.. have i mentioned that i'm gonna spend valentines with my tiko tutor
i hope he's smart enough to realize that i've got a life to live and cancels tuition that day. yay
it is highly impossible though, cos i needa cancel thursday tuition to go church that week too so urgh. nvm. i'll celebrate valentines on the 15th. someone date me k! hahaha..
whatever it is, we went mad at j8 shopping around.. shant go into details but we ate at pastamania and i earned five bucks cos jeannie and ansel dared me to swallow a spoonful of tobasco sauce mixed with cheese,red pepper,black pepper and salt.
it wasnt all that bad actually.. you can only taste the sourness when you shove it into your mouth. go try it one day! hahaha..

yesterday's service was AWESOME
yep, the message was simply amazing
the standards of God are reflected upon us as we are the temple which contains His words. which means, for those who are super laid back like me.. it's time to change! :D:D:D
went sentosa with the cell after service, urgh, didnt do much but yeah.. it was enjoyable
i just didnt quite like the part haopei got too close to me. felt extremely violated. urghhhhh

left early with leila,kat and jiayu and stoned at j8(again?!) for half an hour cos our smart ms peh left her wallet in joshua's bag. wow...
we were being extremely retarded at the busstop though
kat was farting like mad while jiayu and i played masakmasak (right????)
haha, oh we then switched to become a lil more intellectual and played 'qing ni gen wo zhe yang zuo' poop style!
yeah man, imagine three crazy girls at the busstop screaming 'pangsai, laosai, pang jio'
urgh.. hahaha

alright, i've got 15mins left to slack before mugging hard
shall update some time soon

for some reason, it took me awhile to log into blogger this morning
i repeatedly typed those 11 letters hoping that it'll come through
but no! it just wouldn't budge. ugh
i was sure i got the right password.. all the passwords I'm using are the same and I'm sure no one would bother to hack into my blogger account.. there's nothing for you to see, every thing's up in html.
what's happening.. this sucks
in frustration i picked up my phone and started smashing it against the PC
it was then when i realized that i forgot to switch it off from the 'caps lock' mode
-.-
now my phone's not functioning well

moral of the story: do not attempt to smash your computer with your phone. it wont do either of the electronic devices good

find me a way out

i dont know to laugh or to cry
the things you do just shock me

and it ended like that

wheee, stayed home to slack while the 3cellgroups went to have fun in sentosa
well, that wasnt my original plan actually.. i wanted to go shopping with mich, but unfortunately the both of us didnt wake up in time to get money from mum, and so the trip was cancelled. boo
i did manage to study a little though. yes, but shocked. somehow i was just compelled to study la.
it's been like that for awhile already, although most of the time my math textbook's just sitting open in front of me while i use comp.
oh yes, solitaire's like my new hobby now. cos you think you need a lot of brains for it when you actually dont, and you keep winning! :D -sorry, the a lot of brains part is contributed by my dear friend who doesnt know how to play solitaire. haha!

sunday was pretty cool..
mich drove us to church as usual, only that there wasnt boonkiat yesterday cos he was away
yes, it felt pretty weird.. we were making a racket in the car for no reason until mich got irritated and decided to shut us up. haha
booked seats with joshua and his mum. it was so funny, auntie was worrying how she was gonna book seats in charlie without her queuing buddies. she must have got them in the end since she looked so happy after service. haha.
yay, i love auntie! (and her cheesecake. haha)
was having war with angel and dwayne before service started over the seats
well, we won in the end but i felt quite bad cos we chased n109 outta echo terrace again
oh and sorry angel for raising my voice at you, cos you were screaming and i thought i had to make my stand so yeah.. no hard feelings. (:
oh we had a korean new friend today! i forgot what's her name (dont tell!) but she was so funny. a lil blur too.. whoops! we were making her teach us what's 'hi, i am very pretty' in korean. it's somethingsomething ending with a 'bor' okay! hahah. jac changed it to 'pok' though. haha
service started with DELIRIOUS leading praise and worship
yay! i couldnt jump much though, uh.. shant say why cos guys read my blog too. haha
oh yes, and the message was powerful! although most of the time i was making a fool outta myself with jac and jicai
the ending was great though.. the one with the old and new singaporeans. impressive! :D
we had 3encores for delirious which was simply wonderful..
then we went for lunch at changi airport!
sandy and i squeezed jicai outta of the queue cos we insisted that he should be like yt and let us cut
we ended up having to buy his lunch for him. rah
ah, was chatting over lunch and sandy was being her usual suck up self again! SANDY WONG AR! hahaha..
oh yes, haopei tried doing his homework with my pen and he dropped it into his bowl of soup!!!!!
oh man, i freaked out and demanded for a new pen - i didnt get it in the end though. the pen's sitting in my bag now, i dare not use it. haha
went home after lunch and i was in the bus with this guy who looked totally like haopei! God, please dont let haopei be like him when he grows up! haha.. (i think he's from two halls down, if you get what i mean. haha)
watched 'my girl' when i reached home.. it was so sweet

when your beloved is right before you, you cant see or hear anything else but to cant help think about him..

had steamboat for dinner after that.. i had fun cooking and eating while mich kept complaining about wanting to sleep and poop. urgh
oh yes, got mich to teach me math.. she almost died teaching me cos half the time i wasnt listening or simply because i was so distracted nothing could get into my head
she got fed up and decided to curse at me. yes, i got mad at her and started war with her too (loads of war on sunday)
threw a lil tantrum and walked out of her room to cry in my own.
jiayu called shortly after that to make sure i was alright..
that silly girl was so worried about me that despite her bad cough she refused to hang up till i promised her i would go to sleep immediately after we hung up. thanks jia. :D
argh, been feeling a very stressed lately
yes, i'm crazy.. fancy getting stressed when it's only the start of the year. haha
so much to do so little time

till then..

beacuse in the end we realized that we really dont love each other that much

hello! it's 121days to my birthday! ((:

strength is the ability to bounce back after you’re knocked down

this is kinda off but heck it, i like this song
maybe because i'm listening to it while playing solitaire. haha

There was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love through his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unshared
Until it died in his silence

And Solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire

Another day, a lonely day
So much to say that goes unspoken
And through the night, his sleepless nights
His eyes are closed, his heart is broken

A little hope, goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without saying

Solitaireee

And by himself it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
Ohhh
And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing Solitaire
Solitaire, solitaire

i wanna eat apple pie!

the past few days been pretty depressing for me, lets see..
i broke down after cell on saturday and cried the hell outta me. strangely it was haopei who got me to stop crying - i refuse to let him see me cry so i forced my tears back and walked away with jiayu. i went home to continue crying though. haha. no i'm not a crybaby.. i havent cried for 4 freaking months k! i need to let it out.. well, i had dinner with jac, yt and sandy at kovan before going home. we lost kat and haopei on the way there though. haha. but it was still quite fun.. jac and sandy got me thinking when they bit the pack of chili open with their teeth. how in the world did they do that! haha. oh yes, yt kept letting me cut his queue. according to him, he was being a 'nice brother'. well, dinner was cool.. i was the only girl who ate super a lot super quickly. i sound like a pig. :(

sunday was cool.. BRYAN PLAYED HIS SAXAPHONE IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE CHURCH, SOLO!! he was so friggin' cool can! and bryan if you happen to read this, YOU ROCKED! he looked soooo charming! i was totally blown off! we're thinking of setting up a bryan fc for him already.. I'M THE PRESIDENT! jess's the treasurer, and jac shall just run errands. haha. oh and bryan rejected me in my face when i asked him if i could jio him. it's okay.. YOU'RE YOUNGER THAN ME ANYWAY! i wont want you! :P i did tell leila that i had designs on him though, she freaked out. haha
skipped fellowship on sunday and went home to be emo myself again. it was not long before my sisters came home and mum made us all study. urgh. i hate studying. :(

monday! let's see.. we started the day with history and dr foster kept yapping on the 19th century thingy which cant seem to get into my head cos half the time i was staring at his pot belly. seriously! i realized that everytime i see him, i cant help but to stare there and think how in the world did it get so huge! sorry.. we had math after that.. we couldnt hand up our holiday homework cos half the class didnt mark it, which was a good thing cos i didnt complete mine (i didnt even do it on my own la!)
english after recess was cool, mrs cheah locked those were late out la! i got a shock when i saw her having so much fun. she reminded me of helen tan. scary people.. teachers seem to enjoy locking students out of their classrooms. hmm.. double lit after that! yay jeannie, i love ms nicole teo too! :D she's small and loud, yep, SO CUTE! hahaha.. she might get me back on track with lit again! wheeee.. haha. i "abandoned" jeannie after that (she allowed me to go home to sleep!) and yes, went home to sleep. mich was already sound asleep when i reached home. apparently she ended school at 1030 and had already taken her lunch. she's such a pig. haha. well, i was feeling emo AGAIN last night. yes, was thinking a lot before i went to bed last night. jiayu encouraged me with funny poop examples. haha!

school today was hmm, quite boring. we had started with chinese and the lao shi just kept talking and talking and talking and i didnt quite expect my chinese classmates to be so smart. i feel lousy in chinese class for the first time in my entire life! haha. well, right after chinese liz eu and i ran for our lives to r303 for english in fear that we'll get locked out la! hahaha. super funny.. darn, in the end no one got locked out. no i know, just stroll! haha
had double math after recess, bascially we just went through the holiday homework which was very boring. olga and i used the time to compare how old our stationaries were. haha! oh and the smart person hasnt even got all her textbooks yet la! she only gets them when there's homework from it. wow.. had physics before social studies.. mrs tang came in and started the lesson with a 'i am 26..' and everyone burst out laughing thinking she was trying to say 'i am 26 years old' then i told jeannie and elizabeth '26cm la..' and they came up with something funnier! 'bust size, 26A' haha! so smart..
social studies was uh, unproductive.. i like the teacher though. i would want her as my grandmother actually. does that sound odd? haha.. well nothing much, oh and i rushed home to slack after that. took 153 home with eychelle.. she was terrorising me with her camera in the bus! rahhh.. oh and she was offering me sweets that had dropped in her bag. haha. i told her 'dont want la. later i find eraser dust or pencil sharpenings in my mouth. irk. haha'

i've thought it through and through. i've been so silly brooding over such trivia, senseless stuff for such a long time. it's just stupid. besides, there wasnt even anything for me to brood over in the first place! silly me.. it's time to stand up and move on already.. :D

because loving you's so tiring

it's pretty amusing seeing everyone go crazy over their unfinished homework even at this hour
dont be mistaken, i havent finished mine too. hahaha
i got a feeling that the upcoming weekend's gonna be worse. wait, that's kinda obvious aint it. haha
urgh. school tmr.. oh and there's lit! i'm scared. no idea why.. but yes, i'm just terribly afraid of lit. maybe it's because i'm still traumatized by mrs low. haha

i just wanna scream, i just wanna shout, and just cry it all out.

ah yes, school's started already (now that was kinda slow..)
i'm still not used to sleeping and waking up early so i've been surviving on less than 4hours of sleep everyday
oh and if you're wondering if i'm a superwoman or what, no i'm not.. i've been feeling extremely tired in school for the past three days
i've hardly ever been awake. oh and i figured that the more sleepy you feel, the lamer you get. maybe it's because you tend to be a lot more irritating thus more suanings intended. oh well..

well, school's been fine.. uh, without the total discrimination between science and arts students that is. urgh
maybe it's because school just started so it's still pretty slack. let's just hope it stays this way
a few changes implemented this year.. school starts later and ends earlier and that's good. i'm especially pleased with this. i go home at 1pm for 2days. haha
we gotta take funny lame-o hall passes attached to a luminous orange strap to go to the toilet - the school's afraid that we get abducted in school. haha
and well, i've pretty much forgotten about the rest since they dont concern me.

for those of you who havent realize, i'm in 3/7
it's really kinda frustrating meeting people in the corridors and they go 'evan! what class! 3/2 huh!'
so there you have it, 3/7.. stop asking
i got annabel chow(cheah) this year.. it's quite funny considering she's teaching the whole pay family
let's just hope she cuts me some slack on account of my sisters. (she addresses me as ms pay la!)
well, my classmates have been pretty fun i guess.. i've got a friend who tried to reach out to me on the second day of school. haha
i shot her off with a 'oh i got prayer meeting on sat morning, then cell in the afternoon, then i got service on sunday and i've got to give bs after that'
yes, it was pretty hilarious. i was staring at jeannie all the while laughing to myself at her reaction. oh and when i told vanessa about it she went 'she hasnt seen how pro you are. haha'

jeannie and i had lunch with van and her mum yesterday. it was pretty funny.. her mum and us kept pestering van to take amath as a private candidate but she refused to budge. her mum even offered 1/3 of her shares as an incentive la! then we kept bugging her with 'i get the person who invented thisthisthis studied a math! i bet ya lun studied a math!' well, the choice is hers but VAN! TAKE A MATH LA!

okday, it's only the third day of school and i've got tons for homework waiting for me to do already, so adios.. will update again soon

it's 0040 and i'm sitting in front of the comp with a bag of broad beans chatting with jeannie online
i'm really not supposed to be doing this but argh, i cant sleep for nuts la!

was looking through the 07' calender the school put up and jeannie and i were getting all envious at the geog students going to perth and science geeks to tasmania and cheena people to mongolia till.. we spotted a certain column reading 'lit/drama uk'. hahahah! yes! we're going uk! excited! uk! better than your silly australia and china trips! yeah man, i'm gonna work hard and spend a week with my pals in uk! :D

oh yes, we were having our little discussion of sims woohoo-ing until i suddenly brought up the subject on going to poop. hahaha. the worse part is.. I DONT HAVE TOILET PAPER! so jeannie suggested that i used tissue paper instead but i told her.. 'TISSUE PAPER GOT NO FRICTION LA..' hahaha! yeah man.. so she suggested that i used water.. but it'll mean taking at bath at this hour.. no good.. then genius evan said 'how about KITCHEN TOWELS' wahahaha..
dont worry, i didnt use any of those.. i still prefer toilet paper..
oh yes, jeannie had to shove it in and said 'eh i wanna go poop too'

'AT LEAST YOU'VE GOT TOILET PAPER!'

hahaha..

it took me quite awhile to remember that i was supposed to do this, so here goes..

Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself and they gotta be true. Come up with 5 FALSE statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of possibility. Jumble all of them up and list them in any order. Post in your blog and let people guess which are fake. Get 5 others to do the same.
Here we Go!

#1 my kindergarten teacher thought i was autistic
#2 i am lactose intolerant
#3 i once ran in front of the bus and attempted to stop it when i was two
#4 i feel extremely insecure without my phone
#5 i do not live with my parents
#6 i know how to play the violin
#7 i used to enjoy eating bees and grasshoppers
#8 i'm addicted to cockels
#9 i tend to fall in love the most easily at the end of the year
#10 i've tried keeping 9dogs in my place at one time
#11 i have a huge collection of condems at home
#12 i'm a few centimetres away from being the tallest in my family
#13 i cant tell the difference between gratitude and love
#14 i enjoy watching my sister make her sims 'woohoo'
#15 i've got a fiance in korea
#16 i was a lesbian with 3girlfriends
#17 i enjoy looking back into the past
#18 i'm afraid of my ambition
#19 i own a wedding gown
#20 i cant whistle

5 lucky people to do this:
1) you
2) you
3) you
4) you
5) you
if you think of the of 'you's refer to you, go ahead and do it!

ah, i still cant believe it's already 2007 and i'm just about to start out on a new phase of my life
no clue what's to happen this year, what problems are gonna come my way.. and honestly speaking, no matter how strong you may think i am.. i'm really scared, i've got no idea how i'm gonna survive another round of setbacks
but hey, a winner isnt one who never lose.. a winner is one who never quits, who's able to handle failure graciously.. and that's gonna be my new year resolution - i am a winner in Christ the Lord! :D

2006's been a blast but let's not dwell on the past for too long eh, it's time to move on already.. (:
whatever it is, i couldnt have made it without all the wonderful people around me..
so thanks all yall for always being around.. i just realized that i've got no time to come up with testimonials for so many of you, but just wanna let your know that i really appreciate everything that you guys have done for me. i'll never forget them, really.

2007 here we come, bigger..better and stronger than ever!

yeah man, it's like 0235 and i'm blogging at this hour when i can hardly keep my eyes open. argh.
well actually i just came online at this hour to wish everyone an awesome new year!
2007's gonna be the best year yet!

will update later in the day when i'm awake enough and my mind is free to think.
toodles for now! haha!

BED! HERE I COME!!