dear diary

i'm dead afraid now cos my future seems really bleak
i know the o's are coming, in fact it's in less than 7weeks
im freaking out now, yet i cant seem to find the discipline to study
though i seem to have given everyone an impression that i'm all geared up for this major exam
do not be deceived, i honestly havent done any studying at all

fine, i did study a little for history
but that's all! and i'm not even planning to count ss/hist for my L1R5
and i dont get a thing about physics
maybe that's why i dont dare to attend physics lessons
it just makes me feel dumber than i already am

tmr's 46days to o levels
if i dont start mugging, HARD
i am dead.

and if i cant scored lower than a 10,
i dont know how to face myself, wilford, my family and friends, and most importantly God
since i had abandoned church in the name of 'studying'

golly, buck up evan
you need to..

ps: i hate my blog skin, but i dont wanna see the one i had previously