well i guess it's pretty safe to rant on this blog for now..

it stung a little when he said he was trying to forget me
i guess i havent actually let go, although i thought i did..
perhaps it's because all this while i had an assurance that he was gonna wait for me to finish college first
but then again, this is the best ending for us...

i wont hafta suffer from the guilt of betraying my leaders' trust
and he wouldnt needa waste his time anymore
besides, i never thought he would be the kind of guy who could last a couple of months, much less to say, years.. without a girl showering all her attention on him

i was looking through the ikea magazine my dad brought home a couple of minutes ago
and tears kinda just welled up when i thought about the times when i actually dreamt of building a family with him
ahhh, hopeless thinking..
i'm really too young to think about this sorta stuff

wheeee, i'm so hungry now
i feel like eating meat
yum..